I don't remember how I got back from New Orleans. I just realize this last night. I've blocked out a lot, and I've lost a lot of time. I'm completely addicted to ambien and xanax. I told D last night, before I lost my nerve. My friend who is a therapist, is pushing in a, and I am highly resistant to it. I'm going to see my psychiatrist with my husband. But, I need to find an NA group that is full of geniuses and scientists and atheists. I find the higher power talk such bullshit. But there has to be a group online somewhere that caters to my particular buy it. Anyone?

Sarah, I'm sorry I fucked up your birthday party. From what I remember, it was a lovely time. I wish I remembered more of it.

{{{Strix}}} I'm sorry. I don't know anything about NA, but if there is anything else I can do, I'm around.

{{Strix}} I am without a lot of knowledge, but hope that you can find a perfect group.

Strix, thanks for telling us. That had to be hard as hell. Going to your psychiatrist with D is a good start -- your psychiatrist may know of NA or other groups that might work for you. There's something called Rational Recovery that is secular, but I don't think it's group-based.

So much love to you, honey.

Oh, Strix. This is so tough. I hope you find the solutions that meet your needs.

Guys, thanks. Yes, it was superhard. Steph, thanks for the link. I fucking hate group work.

I can't wait for my laptop to get back to me. Its being fixed right now by the company and I wouldn't have any charges against me. It's the keyboard. God, my hands are sweating, and my whole body is just flushing hot and cold right now as I talk to you on my phone. You guys are the smartest people in out, and the best and I know that you'll call me on my bullshit, if you know the truth.

I accidentally posted twice and deleted it. I didn't say anything of substance. I didn't say anything at all, just hit the button. Which is why I wish I had my laptop back.

Much love to you, Strix. I hope you can find good help. When do you see your psychiatrist? What do you need to get you through to that meeting?

{{{Strix}}} I hope that you're able to find help.

On that homework question, I figured out that the computer system wouldn't let me add points to everyone's grade (or, at least, not efficiently -- it would take about three hours, and I'm not going to do that for something that will make zero difference in anyone's grade), but it would let me easily subtract points from the total value of the assignment. So, the assignment is now worth 44 points instead of 46, and so anyone who got those two questions wrong because of the stupid WebAssign issues now has a 100% on the assignment.