I saw my doctor Wednesday and he increased my Lexapro dose. I'm hoping the combination of a higher dose and 7 seasons of Parks and Recreation will snap me out of this grey blah unmotivated depression.

(I also told my doctor -- this is Awesome Doctor -- about Tim's collapsed lung, and he said, without missing a beat, "So I assume you're out of Ativan after all that, and need a refill?")

Oh, that's a good doctor, Steph. I hope the new dose helps.

All my doctors have had me take the Lamictal in the morning. It's never given me any problems taking it then. I'm not sure it would make any difference for me if I took it at night.

That's a very good doctor.

He also agreed with me that "Spontaneous Pneumothorax" is a great name for a heavy metal band.

We're having trouble doing the subQ fluids for Harvey. It's keeping me in the weepy, can't handle this, stage of freaking out. So far we have tried a smaller guage needle, but not the smallest. The vet tech warned us that the smallest guage needles drag out the process significantly longer. But Harvey is so restless and squirmy, that I cannot hold him by myself but Daniel's hands are busy with the needle and squeezing the bag. Turns out, Harvey's a biter. In 17 years he's never snapped at me, but he got me yesterday, and Daniel today.

I'm sorry I can't be as supportive to you all as you deserve but I feel like I'm drowning.

Aww, WindSparrow, you don't have to be supportive for everybody all the time, much as I know you're inclined to. You're totally deserving of getting some support your own self!

So hard with Harvey. I'm sorry you're having to go through this, and I wish it was easier. But you are doing the best you can for him, and he has been lucky to have you all these years.

I've been thinking about you guys. I know you are doing your very best for Harvey. I'm sorry he's struggling with it and making it harder. Poor dude.

Oh Andi, I'm so sorry you and Daniel and Harvey are going through this. It's so stressful when such a beloved companion is sick and hurting and how you are trying to help seems to hurt them worse. You can't explain to Harvey that you know he's uncomfortable and this sucks but it will make him feel better, be patient sweet kitty.

And I feel like lately it's all been about me and haven't been as supportive.

You and Daniel be extra gentle with each other right now/

I'm going to try Lamictal tonight and see if there's a difference.

I slept hard, my back and shoulders hurt from (I think) lying in one position so I may go for a walk if it doesn't rain.

Basicaly I slept from I think 6 or 6:30 to midnight then was like "I'm awake! I can not sleep!" and my mind raced around and I couldn't relax and I remembered I had melatonin so I figured I'd try that. After awhile back to sleep. Then it was raining nad the windows were open so I got up and went through and got the screens out (most of them are removable adjustable kind like this [link] and went back to sleep. Woke up around 4:40, crawled back into bed and slept until 6 ish where I just lay there until I decided to get up.

I don't know how many hours, but a lot. I'm hoping between that and waiting until tonight with the lamitcal I won't feel like falling asleep all day and can seem semi coherent.

{{{{{WS}}}}} I'm sorry that this is so difficult for all of you.

askye, good luck. I really hope that changing your med schedule helps you.

I had horrible, scary nightmares last night. They were not my usual type of nightmare, and I think possibly a delayed reaction to this week's Hannibal.