I'm going to try Lamictal tonight and see if there's a difference.

I slept hard, my back and shoulders hurt from (I think) lying in one position so I may go for a walk if it doesn't rain.

Basicaly I slept from I think 6 or 6:30 to midnight then was like "I'm awake! I can not sleep!" and my mind raced around and I couldn't relax and I remembered I had melatonin so I figured I'd try that. After awhile back to sleep. Then it was raining nad the windows were open so I got up and went through and got the screens out (most of them are removable adjustable kind like this [link] and went back to sleep. Woke up around 4:40, crawled back into bed and slept until 6 ish where I just lay there until I decided to get up.

I don't know how many hours, but a lot. I'm hoping between that and waiting until tonight with the lamitcal I won't feel like falling asleep all day and can seem semi coherent.

{{{{{WS}}}}} I'm sorry that this is so difficult for all of you.

askye, good luck. I really hope that changing your med schedule helps you.

I had horrible, scary nightmares last night. They were not my usual type of nightmare, and I think possibly a delayed reaction to this week's Hannibal.

I need to stop drinking stuff with caffiene I know that. I know dt cokes are horrible for me. But I just had one and before I was even done I started feeling anxious. This has happened before and you'd think it would be enough to get me to quit but I guess it's not.

Water is my friend I just need to drink that.

I also need to be a bit more realistic in what I can do for meals because I keep ending up with stuff going bad or languishing in my freezer.

I wish I had the money to sign up for something that would send me already prepared meals I just had to heat up and not have to stress about grocery lists and meal ideas.

I gave in and had a diet soda this week because I was thirsty and the pharmacy I was at didn't have any seltzer. I apparently still hate diet soda.

I also need to be a bit more realistic in what I can do for meals because I keep ending up with stuff going bad or languishing in my freezer.

I'm terrible at this as well. I need to clean out the freezer of really old stuff before ltc's arrival and maybe freeze some batches of things I know we'll use like various pasta sauces.

I had ideas about what I was going to do but lately even cooking frozen vegges that don't come in the steamer bag seems like too much effort.

which makes me feel lazy but it's just me trying to allocate resources.

I also need to be a bit more realistic in what I can do for meals because I keep ending up with stuff going bad or languishing in my freezer.

Frozen dinners and soup. That's my fallback. I keep telling myself, I'll cook this, and then it goes bad because I don't.

No judgement here. Despite the fact that my morning sickness is mostly gone, TCG is still doing almost all the cooking because I'm so lazy. We usually buy the big resealable bag of frozen veg and throw whatever we need in a corning ware dish in the microwave.

I'm sorry, Windsparrow. I wish our cats could understand when we're trying to help them.

I get limited with the frozen dinners. I need to go by the larger grocery store on my way back from my therapist. Between the limited selections here and the no tomatoes, msg, spicy, citrus, and soy it for the IC it can be really frustrating to find things.

Who was it over in Natter who said that kale just transforms itself into guilt while it's sitting in your fridge, wilting? That's what happens to us. Buy food, intend to cook it, say "fuck it" and go out instead.