I've seen my new therapist three times. I chose her because she does DBT, even though she's not covered by my insurance. I'm not sure I'm going to keep going to her; she's just not as good a fit personality- and approach-wise as my last therapist. As I think I've shared before, he's pretty reminiscent of Clinton Kelly from What Not To Wear. I miss the snark and riffing and getting challenged on my BS. I'm going to give her a few more sessions and we will see.

ION, had to call out from work today because I'm getting a migraine. I went to Pilates yesterday, which I like and is good for my core, but seems to cause misalignments that trigger a migraine. So back to bed with a heating pad for me. Blah.

I am not as groggy today as yesterday this is a good thing. Skipped going outside, they bring people from secure floor and yesterday there were too mnay people for the courtyard plus some strong personalities so I decided not to go. Self care and all that.

Doing a lot of coloring it's like #1 activity. Finished a fuzzy poster thing of fish with markers. They have dover coloring books but they making copies (which makes sense the books last longer) but the copied pages were used up and it was all kids stuff. I asked and they made copies so working on those. Also did some weird watercolor thing I may use as a background for a collage at home. Or cut it up. I'll take pictures at some point. Having the art makes the room brighter.

I can't wait until I get home and get to my real computer.

I started learning Ruby! I get what I'm learning so far. I'm having a hard time remembering the exact wording but I understand the syntax. Does that make sense? It's been like that with HTML , CSS And PhP (codecademy's php stuff is having issues so I took a break). Even if I can't remember the exact way to change a color making padding I understand the structure of it. A few times I've gotten things wrong because I over thought it. Feels good, feels like something I want to delve into more.

Just have to see if I can learn enough and figure out if maybe I can use this as a career path or something.

I went to Pilates yesterday, which I like and is good for my core, but seems to cause misalignments that trigger a migraine.

If it's causing misalignment I'd talk to the instructor about it and ask them to work with you to correct your form. Or maybe you need to adjust the movement so that you don't get the misalignment.

Burrell, I have and do. I'm also ignoring cues that I know are bad for me and using my Alexander technique. I think it's just that I'm weak in certain muscle groups and have loose joints. But how do I get stronger if I don't work out? Yesterday I may have been too ambitious in lifting my shoulders off the floor without supporting my neck; I probably need to do controlled exercises to strengthen the front of my neck (back is v. strong because I spend most of my 10-hr days in flexion). The instructor suggested some, but of course I haven't been doing them.

I hope you can find an approach to Pilates that works for you, smonster.

Burrell, I have and do.

Even as I posted I figured you would, smonster. My stretch teacher used to give us neck strengthening exercises specifically because one member of the class really needed it due to a previous head/neck injury.

Even as I posted I figured you would, smonster.

Yeah, it was worth checking with me, though. It's just frustrating. I have to keep remembering what my AT teacher told me one time after I gave her the litany of stuff I had tried to get rid of a migraine or something: Just because you're in pain doesn't mean you're doing something wrong.

Migraine is better but I'm feeling anxious and sad and lonely. I want company but I can't decide who; sympathy feels like pity and sandpaper right now. The idea of reaching out is making me more anxious. I'll probably just keep watching Arrow until I decide it's time for sleep. Times like this I really hate being single, not that there's any guarantee my non-existent SO would be what I needed right now. BLAH, yo. Just, BLAH.

I feel you, although I have totally been lonely with people too.

boring story but I brok the screen on my chrome book, I can still use it and I think it's under the protection plan but I need to get it replaced. It will work for today and tomorrow but something to do when I return back to work.