OK so 60 is a bottom, not a top. Maybe a bit generous as a bottom, but 90 is a reasonable top range. And yeah, as long as it is rare, 60-70 is not terrible. And sounds like there are close to zero odds of your hitting below 70 anyway. In terms of injecting insulin - if you do end up with injections, make them give you it in a flex pen. Actually easier than pricking your finger. 24 hour insulin exists that (as the name implies) you only need to inject once a day. Any insulin dose should not only be prescribed by a diabetes specialist but discussed with a diabetes specialist. Too many ways it can go wrong to pass back and forth through 3rd parties. So not just an excuse. You really want direct discussion with a diabetes specialist before using insulin.

If you became convinced you had to inject insulin,you could test one less time per day and end up with the same number of needles, one of which would be easier than the lancet you are giving up using.

Also, all 3 of my siblings are diabetic but they all take oral meds.

I think some doctors are hesitant to give oral meds for GD because the meds could affect the baby.

Did my intake thing. I start tomorrow and I won't see my regular therapist until after it's over. I'll go every day the rest of this week, next week adn the week after. Then I'll go down to 3 days a week and they'll want me to start working part time. I'll see how I feel about that.

Stopped by work and talked to R, the assistant manager who has been understanding he said that they would work with things and also there's a partial leave option I can consider.

I feel like I should feel more settled and instead I don't. I wanted to run away and tell them the therapy was mistake. Plus my insurance doesn't pay for it at flat rate, it's per day @ $50/day for 17 or so days not including anything else. I don't know know what the payment options are. I should have called them but I'm just drained, I'll deal with it tomorrow.

{{{askye}}} I really hope that in the long run this is going to be good for you, but it definitely sounds overwhelming in the short term.

My post-lunch numbers were back down to normal. I have had my afternoon snack, and now I am going to take a nap because I have also had my afternoon crying jag which also seems to be part of my new routine.

askye, this feels like it's really necessary for you right now. You're working on getting better. Focus on that and let your mom or someone else deal with the insurance and payment wrangling. Remember, you didn't run away, even when you wanted to. That's a victory right there.

{{askye}} What Maria said. Even if everything feels out of control, it's only a feeling; you actually have taken good control of your situation by asking for help and pursuing it diligently.

sj, I'm glad you have so many knowledgeable folks around to give you advise/support. Pregnancy is hard enough without all the extras that can come with. I think you're doing a good job sticking up for yourself and getting what you need.

One thing that dawned on me re: situations I dread is that I'm remembering how much I hated those situations right after Hubby died. I have since mastered those situations, but I'm still fearing the remembered fear, so I fear the situations. That may seem obvious to people who have better mental health, but I found it epiphanous.

Jumping 500 msgs to ask for advice on therapy. I know I need to be going to a therapist (depression and chronic pain and a touch of ptsd) but i've had terrible experiences in the past with "talk therapy." I don't like *talking* about depression because then i go into that black hole of suck. As a result my PCP regulated my brain drugs and that's usually enuf...but for the next couple months I have a special deal with my insurance where all office visits (including mental health) are 100% covered, no copay...so this seems like an excellent time to try it out. But i'm totally overwhelmed but all the different kinds of therapists out there!

It's like dating, but worse, because i don't know which key phrases to be searching for in the provider lists. I know I don't want talk therapy, i have to DO something, but not sure how that translates into therapist-speak. Any suggestions?

erin_o, maybe look for someone who specializes in short-term behavioral or cognitive-behavioral modes of therapy. Little less navel-gazing, little more strategies for action to make improvements in your life.