Thanks, all! I love you all so much!

Will hopefully have more news at end of day -- and I am REALLY sorry if I am boring/annoying people with this, but I CAN'T talk about it on FB and though I talk with friends, someone is here almost 24/7 and sometimes, I gotta vent.

Seriously, I have three pillars holding up my non-spiral into a flipping depresso/anxiety plummet through this whole house thing: yoga, meds and people. I think because of the yoga and you, and my fam, SH and meatspace friends, I am ABLE to take my meds responsibly and actually am FLOURISHING now, even though it's a real financial and stress mess.

HAIL BUFFISTAS!

The glucose test yesterday was bad. So, I have to go back for more tests. If I do end up having gestational diabetes, I can't imagine what I'm going to be able to eat and keep down.

Strix - maybe once we get both our house stuff settled, we can arrange a meet up. I wanna give you a big hug (unless you are a non-hugger, then we can just nod and smile at eachother).

sj, I'm sorry. I hope they can get it under control while allowing you to actually eat at the same time.

X-posted from Natter:

So I just finished signing the deed in lieu paperwork for the bank. The notary came to my house and we sat down at the dining room table and took care of business. BoA will have it back on Monday, and the last thing to do is schedule the walk-through to make sure the house is in broom-swept condition and I didn't take appliances or fixtures or otherwise damage it. I'm still not sure what day I will no longer have financial responsibility for the house in Frederick, but it's soon. I can't believe I made it here.

I'm not sure how I feel about all of this coming to an end. I thought I would feel relief, but right now I'm just sad. I loved that house, right up to the point where I couldn't anymore, and there's not a small bit of feeling like I failed because I didn't pay my debts as agreed. It's a jumble inside my head.

Suzi, I'm people-I-like hugger! That sounds like loads of fun.

Maria, I know, I know. I know we have to sell this house, and it releases us from financial obligations to the ex, except child support (and DH is a good dad and WANTS to support his child), but we love this house and are sad about leaving it.

You saw it -- it was shabby, but great layout and comfortable and we've been really happy here.

NoRouz Mobarak, Suzi!

How wonderfully, gloriously appropriate (for me) and for you, and Maria and I hope we all have renewal in the areas we wish renewal in!

Ugh Maria, of course it's a complicated jumble of emotions. How could it be anything else? Sending lots of love and support, and I promise we'll split a nice bottle of red the next time I see you.

sj, I'm sorry. I hope they can get it under control while allowing you to actually eat at the same time.

Thanks. I'm going for a fasting blood work this weekend, and then probably the long ass test someday next week (not that I have a four hour block available any day next week). I just haven't been able to keep down proteins or vegetables unless they're surrounded by carby goodness and cheese. I know this isn't the healthiest way too eat, but I figured it was better than starving.

{{{{{Maria}}}}} What Burrell said. It would be surprising if you didn't feel all those things right now.

there's not a small bit of feeling like I failed because I didn't pay my debts as agreed

What you agreed was that you would pay it back or they would get the property. Which is what's happening. You haven't done anything wrong.