Talked to Will today. I thought I was sure about somethings now I do't know and I feel wrecked. Plus therapy today. so really wrecked.

Won' see therapist until Wednesday (she has persaonal stuf) but I may email her.

{{{askye}}} I'm sorry things continue to be tumultuous for you. Relationships are tough at the best of times, and these are not the best of times.

Feeling down on myself. I, as usual, had a ton of stuff I wanted to get done today, not least because there's lots of fun stuff happening this weekend. I managed to get to Pilates and do some laundry, but no tidying or financial stuff or baking banana bread for a brunch tomorrow or anything. In my defense, pain. But I just never know when I'm being smart and when I'm being lazy*. I'm loopy as fuck on half a dose of muscle relaxants, so laundry is about the best I can manage, but now I'm up late when I really didn't need to be.

* so I know how mean to myself to be? Brain, you cray.

Also, the clutter in my room is feeling oppressive and decluttering is another thing I didn't get around to today.

Yeah, tough stuff, askye.

Go easy on yourself, smonster. I have stuff I needed to do today that didn't get done, and I don't have pain! But keep plugging away a little at a time.

I have to do some work this weekend, as I have a meeting at 9AM that I have done zero prep for. That'll be a couple hours. I went dancing tonight, which is always good--combo of working out (it's totally a workout, I get so sweaty!) and seeing friends. There was even a cute girl to flirt a little with. Yay. In the morning, PI day run and pie! And maybe at some point go see a ballet movie?

Fingers crossed it's not raining too bad during the race tomorrow--it was nice today but tomorrow is 90% rain (but maybe just sprinkles as opposed to pouring??)

I still think MM needs to get that transporter working so we can go help each other motivate and clean in person! (Ok in person we'd actually hang out, watch tv, and drink. But whatever.)

I still think MM needs to get that transporter working so we can go help each other motivate and clean in person! (Ok in person we'd actually hang out, watch tv, and drink. But whatever.)

No, but see... not getting stuff done then would simply be being the kind of gracious, thoughtful hosts that focus on guests' relaxation and pleasure. It would be a virtue. I swear.

I don't wanna deal with the oppressive mass of clutter. I wanna go back to bed. But I'll be mad at myself later if I do. Ugh.

I feel better this morning, physically and mentally, if still slightly stoned. Up early enough to bake banana bread and clean up some before brunch starts, so that's good. Goals: bake bread, fold and put away clothes, shower. Anything else is lagniappe.

C'mon, Zenkitty, you can do it! Would it help to put on music and/or use a timer and take a short break every hour or so, a la Flylady!!

I'm up. Showered and about to make breakfast. Not entirely awake yet. A caffeinated beverage would be a good idea. Think I'd like today better if it were sunny instead of rainy and gloomy, but hey, it isn't snowing! And there's a loud cheery songbird on the patio determined to make it be spring right now.

Cheese omelette and bacon, with a side of antihistamines. Yum!

That does sound yummy! And hey, if it were sunny, you'd be resentful of being cooped up inside cleaning. Or maybe that's just me.

Once again I have overestimated what I can do in a given time. Banana bread is in the oven and I'm about to shower, and that's going to be all that gets done before the party. Ah well.