We want to hear whatever you need to say, Connie.
You are a strong person, and you know he'd want you to stay strong.
Wash: Psychic, though? That sounds like something out of science fiction. Zoe: We live in a space ship, dear. Wash: So?
'Objects In Space'
Spike's Bitches 48: I Say, We Go Out There, and Kick a Little Demon Ass.
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Ginger - Jul 04, 2014 8:38:39 pm PDT #11920 of 30002
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda
Maria - Jul 04, 2014 8:42:07 pm PDT #11921 of 30002
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
One of the listener things I've learned that I've told mom when coping with her sister's loss of Frank is that she can't fix IT, but she can just be there to chase all the mental trails and head them off when they're heading to unproductive grounds- but nothing can fix.
THIS. She learned this because of me.
Sarameg is the reason why I made it through. She didn't need to be there physically, but she would have been had I asked. Her nightly phone calls were beacons in a very dark place, and often the only things I could hold on to. She didn't judge; she didn't preach; she didn't fix. She just was. And that's what I needed.
Share everything. Share nothing. It's not going to change the fact that we support you, and we're willing to take whatever you want to throw our way.
Scrappy - Jul 04, 2014 8:57:20 pm PDT #11922 of 30002
Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.
Beautifully said, MFNlaw.
Connie Neil - Jul 04, 2014 9:11:11 pm PDT #11923 of 30002
brillig
I've been watching Castle episodes, refilling my week's drug caddies. Typical end of the week stuff. Feeling normal. Feeling the crouching dread. Feeling the "why bother."
I need to talk to someone professional. The distraction of Castle is good, but it wears off. It's been just over 24 hours, I know it's hard, but, dammit.
Maria - Jul 04, 2014 9:17:12 pm PDT #11924 of 30002
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Connie, the Huntsman should have resources. Hopkins did for me. And don't be so hard on yourself. You would chastise me if I said the same. Go ahead and feel the "why bother." You're searching for a new normal. It's going to take time.
Connie Neil - Jul 04, 2014 9:31:20 pm PDT #11925 of 30002
brillig
I'm so afraid of the future. I hate feeling right and knowing I'm going to get slugged in the stomach again. I've always hidden behind him when I was this afraid. And I have to stand here and take it.
SailAweigh - Jul 04, 2014 9:51:41 pm PDT #11926 of 30002
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb
Connie, I am so terribly sorry for your loss.
omnis_audis - Jul 04, 2014 11:09:22 pm PDT #11927 of 30002
omnis, pursue. That's an order from a shy woman who can use M-16. - Shir
Taking some time on the overnight shift. Connie, checking in, seeing if I can be a distraction. Or helpful in some way?
I've always hidden behind him when I was this afraid. And I have to stand here and take it.There is physical, and there is emotional. While he may no longer physically be there to stand behind, emotionally, he is strong in your heart. Use that strength. As a shelter from the storm. As a shield. As a crutch to lean on. It will power you. It will help you these coming days/weeks/months.
P.M. Marc - Jul 04, 2014 11:58:41 pm PDT #11928 of 30002
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear
I am so sorry, Connie.
Shir - Jul 05, 2014 3:44:11 am PDT #11929 of 30002
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".
Connie. I am so sorry. My deepest sympathies.
>I think I understand where agoraphobia comes from. My foundation is missing, and I'm afraid to step off the porch. I keep telling myself that these first few days are going to be the worst, that I am strong, I can live mostly on my own. But here in the middle of it, it's hard to breathe.
You are a heroine for letting him go, and he is the legend he made of his life.
You truly are, Connie. You are incredibly brave. I am in tears for you and your DH. If there's anything I can do (time difference, yay?), just say.
My heart also goes out to Miracleman and family, DCJ and family, and belated condolences to Sail.
Belated congrats to DebetEsse, moving~ma to Strix, job~ma and health~ma to those who need it.
Happy belated ~ma to basically everyone, because I think I missed all of your birthdays.