Oh, sj, how maddening.

Wow, sj. I think I'd be talking to a patient advocate about the lack of communication between your health care providers. Seriously, when it's that delicate a situation, everyone should be on the same page. Tons of ~ma to you and TCG.

I'm so sorry for your pain, sj.

ION, Hubby gets admitted for a month next Tuesday, barring sudden onset weirdness. I don't know if it's hisH attitude or his mutant Vikingness, but he's coping with this so much better than anyone has expected. He tells people what cancer he has and his chances, and they're all horrified. He was actually offered a job as a patient counselor at the Huntsman, but aside from the commute, he's not sure what that would do to his disability status. But he can always volunteer.

So now we're deciding what he's going to take with him and what I'll be bringing up on a regular basis. They encourage him to have his own clothes as a reason to get out of bed, and I'll be doing clean underwear runs. I told him it was like weekends from college in reverse. They have kitchens and laundries up there for families. And they will bring him nearly anything he wants to eat in the middle of the night.

I'm reminding myself that I am a fully competent grownup who can live alone for a month and that the car will not suddenly develop bizarre symptoms as soon as my husband is out of reach.

And we need to wash candidates from the puppy pile (the pack of stuffed wolves that live in bed) so he can take a few up with him. I hope the cat doesn't hate me in two weeks.

sj - we had a scare when I was pregnant with CJ. They couldn't find a heartbeat and wanted to schedule a D&C. KCD pushed back and they decided to let us wait a week and have me seen in the high risk department. And...well, I have CJ. I know your situation is different, but sometimes waiting and checking again is a good option. I hope your doctor gets back to you soon.

I'm sorry sj, how frustrating. FWIW it sounds like the doctor and the NP are not necessarily in agreement as to the likeliest outcome, and therefore are giving differing advice, rather than anyone being cavalier about your pregnancy. But I'm sorry that it is impacting you in such a personal way.

My doctor called me back just as I was getting my food at a very loud restaurant (of course). He wants me to stay on the progesterone until next weeks ultrasound because in very very rare cases the baby will just suddenly start growing. He does not expect this to happen in my case, and what he actually expects is that when I go for my ultrasound next Thursday, there will be no heartbeat at all. He also made a point of telling me that I will be seeing a different NP after next week's appointment, which is good because I really don't like the bedside manner of the one I have been seeing.

Oh, sj, I'm so sorry for this struggle and uncertainty.

While I am certain you will be prepared for whatever outcome next week, I would add to Suzi's encouragement.

It may be that this baby is not able to stay, but my mother was told that I had no heartbeat at 6 months, but that she would have to carry me to term...very different times, of course.

Well, I made it, for what that is worth.

It does sound like he was as appalled at the bad communication as you and the rest of us were. I'm glad he got back to you to clarify his expectations. I wish there was something we could offer that would help more than virtual hugs and love.

I wish there was something we could offer that would help more than virtual hugs and love.

The virtual hugs and love are helping more than you can ever know. I am grateful beyond words to have a safe place to hide and vent, especially a place I can access virtually from anywhere.

love to you both sj.