Holy crap, just heard the older foster kid (7) next door screaming that she wanted to kill herself, followed by a smack, and the door slamming.
River: You're not right, Early. You're not righteous. You've got issues. Early: No. Oh, yes, I could have that. You might have me figured out, then. Good job. I'm not 100%.
'Objects In Space'
Natter 71: Someone is wrong on the Internet
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Juliebird - Jul 20, 2013 1:22:43 pm PDT #29832 of 30001
I am the fly who dreams of the spider
§ ita § - Jul 20, 2013 1:44:16 pm PDT #29833 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
Okay, so what makes you feel like someone punched you in the larynx? Because I'm sitting here, unpunched, and my throat keeps firing off like it's in extreme pain but nothing is happening. This is fucking weird.
WindSparrow - Jul 20, 2013 1:54:17 pm PDT #29834 of 30001
Love is stronger than death and harder than sorrow. Those who practice it are fierce like the light of stars traveling eons to pierce the night.
Holy crap, Juliebird and ita_! I don't have answers for either of you.
Juliebird - Jul 20, 2013 1:54:38 pm PDT #29835 of 30001
I am the fly who dreams of the spider
That sounds awful and panicky. Are you having any trouble breathing?
le nubian - Jul 20, 2013 1:59:41 pm PDT #29836 of 30001
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
§ ita § - Jul 20, 2013 2:02:32 pm PDT #29837 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.
It hurts to breathe, but I can do it. The pain is coming in waves and I can't even work out if it's muscular or trachea or oesophagus. I've made my peace with migraines, etc, but this pain needs to have a good excuse.
As long as I'm breathing and not puking I'll call it tolerable. It's not interfering with function.
Ouch, though.
Juliebird - Jul 20, 2013 2:02:57 pm PDT #29838 of 30001
I am the fly who dreams of the spider
I talked to the foster parents just now. Seems it was drama over kiddie pool priveledges being revoked after five warnings to play nice or else.
And apparently after the declaration of suicide, the foster mom offered the kid a fucking knife and said go for it. I kid you not, this is what she said she told the kid. Then the kid cried that she didn't want to kill herself, and foster mom said "then don't say shit like that or we'll have to go to the hospital (psych ward as per the children's service rep's advice). And then there were screams about how she hated my neighbor and wanted her real mom.
It scares me that they're so casual about how they admit the things they do and say towards their wards. Yeah, this kid obvs has issues, but holy shit. I'm sure they wouldn't have actually given the kid the knife, and hopefully would have boogied her off to the psych ward if she'd expressed legitimate interest in the weapon, and maybe calling her bluff in a tough-love way was the right choice. But, so fucking frightening to witness and then hear about.
I'm going to ponder lemonade stands and awesome volunteers and why I keep wanting to type "lemonade" as "lemondae".
le nubian - Jul 20, 2013 2:03:39 pm PDT #29839 of 30001
"And to be clear, I am the hell. And the high water."
ita,
I think you need to go in. that isn't a good thing.
Juliebird - Jul 20, 2013 2:14:42 pm PDT #29840 of 30001
I am the fly who dreams of the spider
Yes, please, ita !, get thee to a clinic or something. Things messing with your ABC's is scary.
-t - Jul 20, 2013 2:22:26 pm PDT #29841 of 30001
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
I can't imagine what that might be, ita. Is swallowing okay? I would be tempted to apply heat in some manner and see if that helped, because that is my general reaction to pain.