Illyria: We cling to what is gone. Is there anything in this life but grief? Wesley: There's love. There's hope...for some. There's hope that you'll find something worthy...that your life will lead you to some joy...that after everything...you can still be surprised. Illyria: Is that enough? Is that enough to live on?

'Shells'


Natter 70: Hookers and Blow  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


§ ita § - Oct 24, 2012 5:08:55 pm PDT #26949 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.

I'm currently trying to explain to the neuro how low my bar is. I'm not asking for a way for the pain to go away--I'm asking for it to be controlled to a level where I can work 5 days out of 7. I have given up on it stopping hurting. But I don't play the lottery, so I have to be able to support myself. Short or long term disability aren't viable. I have no choice except to be able to keep working.


Kat - Oct 24, 2012 5:14:40 pm PDT #26950 of 30001
"I keep to a strict diet of ill-advised enthusiasm and heartfelt regret." Leigh Bardugo

Because in working you get to keep paying for things like the ability to have treatment for your headache and the health insurance to cover it. Ugh. ita. I'm sorry.


§ ita § - Oct 24, 2012 5:33:40 pm PDT #26951 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.

His words:

The only other option is to have you admitted for IV treatment.

Okay, sure! I'll get admitted to hospital 52 times a year. That sounds like a totally reasonable use of everyone's time and resources. That's not a waste of ANYTHING.

If he doesn't have my back (the pain doctor is a toss up--it's a miracle he's prescribing me pain meds, but he normally "fixes" my shoulder once a year--the flexeril is because he hasn't been able to fix it this year) I am effectively backless. I have that general doctor from Gonda who called my record of bad response "dubious" who seems reasonable, but I DON'T KNOW WHO THE FUCK HE IS. He's not *my* doctor. I need *my* doctor to want to help me. For fuck's sake why is that complicated?


Scrappy - Oct 24, 2012 8:27:41 pm PDT #26952 of 30001
Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

He wants you to go into the hospital every WEEK? WTF?


meara - Oct 24, 2012 8:41:18 pm PDT #26953 of 30001

Is being admitted that much worse than having it in the ER?


Jesse - Oct 25, 2012 2:52:04 am PDT #26954 of 30001
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

I'm currently trying to explain to the neuro how low my bar is.

I don't know if this is useful, but could you talk about it in terms of being able to drive? That seems concrete and life-affecting.


§ ita § - Oct 25, 2012 4:55:11 am PDT #26955 of 30001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.

Is being admitted that much worse than having it in the ER?

Yes. It's "only" observation, it's not like they're settling you down for the long haul, but it's not something ou do casually. Doctors are much harder to come by, for one-- especially the ones in your speciality., and there's a meal plan, and they take over giving you your normal meds--there's a decent chance I wouldn't always get out in time to go to work on Monday unless I left AMA.


Nilly - Oct 25, 2012 5:00:56 am PDT #26956 of 30001
Swouncing

Skipping yes-indeed-again because, according to the Buffista Calendar, today is brenda m's birthday.

Happy birthday, brenda! With lots of wishes for a great day and a wonderful year!


Jesse - Oct 25, 2012 5:05:41 am PDT #26957 of 30001
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.

Happy birthday, brenda!

So yesterday, my one coworker said something about The Office and our office, and now I can't stop assigning people to characters in my head, and it's so inappropriate and/or mean! (Inappropriate: the one woman of color in my department is kind of cutesy, so Kelly. Mean: a coworker I like quite who is dumpy as Phyllis.)


Fred Pete - Oct 25, 2012 5:08:07 am PDT #26958 of 30001
Ann, that's a ferret.

Happy Birthday, brenda!