jeez, sj. man oh man.

Omg, smonster, Tom and I were drunk. I have some recollection of talking to St. W about being from Alabama and I hope very much I wasn't a total jackass. Other than being worried about that, though, that was definitely fun times.

Though Tom is grumpy about his hangover today.

I spent most of my month in the hospital, when I had pancreatitis, on clear liquids. I thought I was going to go insane.

So my dad called me this morning and told me he's going to have an angiogram tomorrow, to see if he has a blockage that's causing the chest pain.

At this point, I don't know if (1) the angiogram was the plan all along but Dad didn't tell me because he was confused; (2) the angiogram was the plan all along but Dad didn't tell me because he didn't actually know about it until today; (3) the doctor didn't decide until today that he should have an angiogram; or (4) some other inexplicable factor.

He hasn't seen a cardiologist all weekend, because "they don't come in on the weekends." So I don't know when and how the plan for the angiogram was cooked up. I'm guessing that #1 or #2, above, is the most likely thing. It was probably the plan all along, and Dad was either confused about what they told him, or they just didn't tell him until today. But I don't know when the cardiologist would have cooked up the plan, if they don't fucking work on the weekends. I am at a loss.

And I'm still agog at a hospital that looks at a 70-year-old man who's had 5 heart attacks and says, "Yeah, yeah, chest pain, okay, you need to wait 2 days before we'll cath you to find out why you're having the pain."

I'm going over to see him in a little bit, and I know there's not going to be anyone I can actually talk to to find out why this was considered to be a good idea (because, of course, the cardiologist doesn't work weekends, so *he* won't be there to talk to).

I'll find out what I can from the nurse, and maybe the nurse can shed some light on why the 2-day delay was considered okay. But I'd like to talk to the doctor who actually made the decision.

Bah. Shower now.

Steph, do you have a medical POA for your dad? Would that make things easier?

The hospital may have an ombudsman that you can speak with.

I do have a medical POA, but I didn't think that took effect unless he was incapacitated.

I'm also really annoyed that Tim is camping this weekend.

I say that knowing all of the following are true: (1) the camping trip was planned a month ago, obviously before there was any way to know any bad shit was going to go down; (2) Dad is basically fine and there is no earth-shattering crisis; (3) there's no need for Tim to be here; (4) he has his own life and can do his own shit; and (5) if he had asked me if I wanted him to stay, I would have told him to go camping. t edit (6) And I am a grown-ass adult who has dealt with Dad being in the hospital by myself for 15 years before meeting Tim and I can obviously continue to do so.

All of those things are true, and I fully acknowledge them, and yet I'm still annoyed. I'm allowed to feel those contradictory things, right? Or am I the world's biggest selfish jackass who shouldn't even be in a relationship since I can't say "Yes, go camping" and then be cheerful and glad about it?

I'm allowed to feel those contradictory things, right?

Yes.

is it possible that they did an EKG/EEG and some blood tests and he didn't have the markers to get the tests right away?