So I just talked to an attorney about handling Rob's estate. It hurt more than I expected it to. I'd really like this to stop.
The next time you decide to stab me in the back... have the guts to do it to my face.
Mal ,'Ariel'
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Maria - Mar 01, 2012 8:53:33 am PST #8895 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Connie Neil - Mar 01, 2012 9:01:20 am PST #8896 of 30001
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I don't think it does stop, Maria. I think it just hurts a little less.
Maria - Mar 01, 2012 9:05:36 am PST #8897 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
I'm just floored at all the ways that things/actions/moments that used to have no meaning are suddenly fraught with emotion and weight. It's like being blindsided multiple times a day.
The weight of everything is what's surprised me the most.
Maria - Mar 01, 2012 9:09:10 am PST #8898 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
And I can't listen to music. Too many landmines. It's too quiet now. The TV is always on when I'm at home, and news radio in the car, but I miss listening to music.
sj - Mar 01, 2012 9:10:49 am PST #8899 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
(((Maria))) I'm so sorry that you're in so much pain.
Burrell - Mar 01, 2012 9:12:15 am PST #8900 of 30001
Why did Darth Vader cross the road? To get to the Dark Side!
Sending much ~ma to GC for good results, and many hugs to Maria.
Maria - Mar 01, 2012 9:15:05 am PST #8901 of 30001
Not so nice is that I'm about to ruin a Friday morning for a bunch of people because of a series of unfortunate events and an upset foreign government. - shrift
Not to continue to be all memememe....
You all knew we had problems--ones that were big enough to seriously consider going our separate ways. We both made so many mistakes and held so many grudges and fought the dirtiest way possible, but I've now realized that none of that mattered in the end. I wasted so much time being angry, and I'll regret that for the rest of my life.
brenda m - Mar 01, 2012 9:19:44 am PST #8902 of 30001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there
You're human, Maria. And so is he. And neither of you could see the future. I'm so sorry that this adds to your pain.
Glamcookie - Mar 01, 2012 9:23:50 am PST #8903 of 30001
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister
Oh Maria. I’m so sorry, friend.
Java – They sound fun! We have been so lucky being in the LA-area to meet lots of two mom families with babies our guy’s age. I said to DW, “Who knew that you had to have a kid to meet the lovely ladies in your neighborhood?”
Thanks for all the good thoughts. I’m feeling much better after my doctor visit. He said the odds are low that it is cancerous, and even if it is is, it is usually resolved by removing the thyroid. He really put me at ease and I’m feeling much less stress around it. Now I just wait for 3/15 to get the thing biopsied. Can’t believe that was the first available! Argh!
Kate P. - Mar 01, 2012 9:25:23 am PST #8904 of 30001
That's the pain / That cuts a straight line down through the heart / We call it love
Oh, Maria, I wish I knew how to help you let go of that regret. No, your relationship wasn't perfect -- not to sound flippant, but whose is? -- but you both stuck with each other and loved each other, and that means a lot.
If this is unhelpful, feel free to disregard. I don't want to tell you how to feel; as others have said, your thoughts and emotions are going to be huge and overwhelming for a while, and the best you can do is ride them out. I'm just sorry that this is a part of it for you.