Maria - I'm around if you want to talk or just sit -
Spike's Bitches 47: Someone Dangerous Could Get In
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
oh, Maria - I'm so sorry.
I wish I could do something for you Maria. I hope you can feel all this love and support.
I don't know how to do this.
{{{Maria}}} Love, I ache for you. I wish I could make it all better, but life just sucks beyond the telling in so many ways. -t has wise advice and I'm sorry you and she are learning and sharing in this wisdom in such a brutal way.
do you have a friend or family member who can be with you physically? We aren't supposed to do this by ourselves.
We haven't for hundreds of thousands of years.
We need other people to help us pick up the pieces, help us with the mundane.
Bella, you don't have to know how. Just do what you need to to get through the next minute.
Breathe in / breathe out. That's all you need to to right now, Maria. Otherwise, let other people take care of you.
Maria please -- what everyone else said about it not being your fault. You know who I fight most with? Scott, my kids, and my mother. You know who I love the most? Scott, my kids, and my mother. You know who I never fight with? The meter reader. It's a correlation, not a coincidence. What -t said, too.
Did you get any sleep, at all? Are your parents home with you?
We're here. We have your back, and your front, and all the sides of you and your heart. All the corners and sharp places and broken shards. Even if we can't do anything at all but be here, we will not stop being here. This minute, and the next, and the next. All you have to think about is getting from this minute to the next one, and one of us will be there (literally every single minute -- between our different time zones and all the insomnia I'm pretty sure we have you covered around the clock).
Also, -t is deeply wise.
eta: So is Cindy.