Can I get some general ~ma for myself right now? As some of you know, I've been kind of up and down for a month, and right now I'm really, really down, and really feeling like a failure at everything, to the point where I'm on the verge of making it a self-fulfilling prophecy at work. I'm feeling physically removed from my closest friends, and I'm feeling like it wouldn't make any difference to anyone but my mom if I never left my house again.
Love isn't brains, children, it's blood, blood screaming inside you to work its will.
Spike ,'Sleeper'
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Anne W. - Dec 28, 2011 4:04:33 am PST #4779 of 30001
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
Laura - Dec 28, 2011 4:29:29 am PST #4780 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
Oh, Anne. I'm sorry that you are struggling. Are you able to take some time to pamper yourself?
Anne W. - Dec 28, 2011 4:40:33 am PST #4781 of 30001
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
I'm not sure pampering would help. Right now, I just want to feel competent at something.
sj - Dec 28, 2011 4:52:08 am PST #4782 of 30001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
{{{Anne}}} I'm so sorry you're going through that. Is there anything we can do to help, other than sending all the ~ma your way?
amyth - Dec 28, 2011 4:53:58 am PST #4783 of 30001
And none of us deserving the cruelty or the grace -- Leonard Cohen
Oh, Anne. Lots of ~ma. Feeling that way is the worst. Like sj said, please let us know if there's anything else we can do.
Laura - Dec 28, 2011 4:57:25 am PST #4784 of 30001
Our wings are not tired.
All kinds of ~ma. Competency may be a bit subjective for you to make the call. Perhaps you can make a lst of your top 3 successes to be more objective. How we feel about our own competency is usually not accurate. Borrow some of Newt's self confidence. He has plenty to spare.
Anne W. - Dec 28, 2011 5:45:32 am PST #4785 of 30001
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
Thank you. I'll give that a try, but right now I'm trying to overcome the paralysis that comes with this drop in confidence (and I'd gladly take Newt's, especially of it would get him to shut up). I'm having trouble starting on things, and I feel like giving up altogether on things I like (writing, drawing, etc.) because I feel like I'll never be any good. I'm having trouble getting what I know is true to override what I feel is true.
The kicker is that I'm supposed to do my trimester review, complete with self-rating, this week. HA HA HA.
beth b - Dec 28, 2011 6:09:03 am PST #4786 of 30001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
Sending you the ma~~~ Anne. I always find one day of wallow will allow me to do one thing and one thing more , that gets me out of this. But - I do not suffer from severe depression nor am I you, so pay no attention to me if it doesn't make sense.
Strix - Dec 28, 2011 6:19:08 am PST #4787 of 30001
A dress should be tight enough to show you're a woman but loose enough to flee from zombies. — Ginger
Lots of -ma, Anne. I've been there, and that head-space sucks.
But hey, WE know you are awesome, and you know you can trust us. Go with that, and remember: fake it till you make it.
Seska (the Watcher-in-Training) - Dec 28, 2011 6:54:23 am PST #4788 of 30001
"We're all stories, in the end. Just make it a good one, eh?"
Much ~ma, Anne. I hope things improve for you.
Shir, heh - that makes today seem a bit less awful. It'll be lovely to see you tomorrow, at least!