Hil,

I'm kinda wondering if you should take off more than a few days. It sounds like you need to be home for a week to get plenty of rest.

Yes, Hil; hie thee to a doctorb. Too many people I know have walked around with, well, walking pneumonia. At the very least, maybe you can get some Magic StopCoughing Coedeine. Unless you're allergic.

Too many people I know have walked around with, well, walking pneumonia.

When I had The Pleurisy, I thought it was pneumonia. A big factor in it becoming pleurisy was my cough (it was so persistent that it caused enough irritation to inflame the pleura), so definitely get the cough looked at again.

Yes, Hil; hie thee to a doctorb. Too many people I know have walked around with, well, walking pneumonia. At the very least, maybe you can get some Magic StopCoughing Coedeine. Unless you're allergic.

I went to the doctor last week, and he gave me Codeine, as well as Prednisone and an inhaler. I just sent him a message saying that the cough is getting worse and asking what to do. (The web form for sending a message gives me options for the subject line: New Problem, Existing Problem, Medical Question, and Other Medical Question.)

I usually have Thursdays off, but tomorrow I've got to grade midterms. That's not as strenuous as teaching, though -- no talking and no chalk dust.

I looked at flylady - it has been awhile . she is still way to perky for me.But I do need to create some sort of routine and this might be the tool

This photo. I can't even. Best parents ever. [link]

I took my codeine for the night, and now I'm settling in on the couch with a blanket and a DVD of Pirates of the Caribbean. I feel like a sick ten-year-old.

Love that picture!

Hil, did you hear back from your doctor?

Okay, time to admit something "out loud." I'm depressed again. I do still feel vaguely nauseated, but I never threw up today. What I also feel is... not much else. Flat and numb. I think part of it is SAD, but I think the whole thing with StW is really weighing on me. I hate not knowing, I hate this limbo, I hate feeling like I'm not a priority for him. He went out last weekend and didn't call me. He's on vacation next week and is leaving town for some of it. If he doesn't make time to see me, well, I think it's time for a talk.

I've been as supportive and non-needy as I can possibly be, but I think I'm running out of anything to give. Don't feel like I'm getting much of anything. It's been four months since our first date, and I feel less connected to him now than ever.

Sorry, I feel like I've just been dumping and dumping, but I need to get this out. I think I'm going back to bed soon. I did eat dinner, and I did a whole bunch of dishes, so I haven't been totally unproductive. I slept most of the day, though.

I really don't want to feel this way. I hate it. I felt like this for this for so long, and I really don't want to have to go through it again.

Hil, did you hear back from your doctor?

Not yet. But I was only able to send him a message at about 5:30 tonight, so I probably won't hear back until tomorrow.

{{{smonster}}}

{{{Hil}}} Feel better.

{{{smonster}}} You haven't been dumping. Seasonal depression sucks and it only gets worse when you aren't feeling well on top of it. I hope things begin to look up soon.