Last night Biyi borrowed my iPhone to call a couple of her interpreter friends. Today I got a text message from one of them:
"Will try to catch up this evening. I am in Mag court all week."
Naturally, I forwarded it, which led to the following exchange:
"Hi Sweetie. I'm guessing this message I received was meant for you:" [message attached]
"Yes, from my Italian lover."
I'm not sure which one concerns me more - that she's laying claim to an Italian lover, or that she's using my phone to set up their trysts.
Also, Jilli - insent to Gothic Charm School Email. Don't have your gmail address.
Typo, I just saw it, but I'm about to run away from the computer (again) and make dinner. I will reply tonight!
Happy birthday, Strix!
Sean, I'm glad you checked in.
Honey, I don't think it's your couches. I think it's your sangria. Or maybe just your slutty friends.
I need to be introduced to these friends too. I promise to drink some sangria.
Blergh.
eta hurricane stress moved to Natter
Stay safe, everyone.
We're at the airport. Our flight was delayed by 45 minutes. Hopefully it won't be delayed again.
Yeah, that's hard, smonster.
So, I'm kinda in a crisis. This weekend was not good and I ticked off more symptoms of depression but kept telling myself I just need to get to Tuesday and my appointment with my new therapist.
Today I woke up and I just I hit a wall I guess. I called Will. I called Mom. I finally called the doctor's office and I have an emergency appointment with someone at 11. I called hte temp agency and said I had a "medical situation" and couldn't return to work and might not be able to tomorrow.
I managed to do that without crying. I called Mom and cried some more and right now I'm trying not to beat myself , feel guilty, or think worst case scenarios or feel like a failure.
It pisses me off. I was doing well, my whole family talked about how well I'm doing and how stable I was and how happy. And it was not mania or hypo mania. It was stability. I want it back.
I'm sorry you're going through this, askye, but also, it sounds like you are doing every single thing exactly right to help yourself in the immediate, and that's really huge. I hope your 11a appointment is good and you get what you need. Wish I had something actually useful to say. Keeping you in my thoughts.
Belated Happy Birthday, Strix!
You're doing so great, askye. The fact that you're here, processing, using your resources, gauging your abilities and responding accordingly is absolutely great.
Yes, it's a setback, but it is not a failure. Keep at the hard work, and hopefully your two professional appointments will get you back pointed the right direction.
