Belated Happy Birthday, Strix!

You're doing so great, askye. The fact that you're here, processing, using your resources, gauging your abilities and responding accordingly is absolutely great.

Yes, it's a setback, but it is not a failure. Keep at the hard work, and hopefully your two professional appointments will get you back pointed the right direction.

I'm sorry you're going through this, askye, but also, it sounds like you are doing every single thing exactly right to help yourself in the immediate

100% agreement.

I really think it is awesome you called the temp agency and told them you need to take care of some medical issues.

askye, what they said; you're doing everything right to take care of yourself. You have a great support system and you're using them. That's amazing and it shows how much progress you really have made.

Absolutely, askye. I know it sucks and it's disheartening, but you are handling this well.

Thanks for all your support it means a lot to me.

I saw the same person I talked to this morning. I guess he's like a crisis counselor. He was really nice and he'd talked to my shrink, who is concerned because I seemed to be doing so well when I was there before. He's also going to talk to my new therapist. She was in session, otherwise he would have introduced us.

Main thing he told me - I'm really hard on myself. This is something I'm hearing a lot lately from different sources so I guess I need to actually pay attention to that.

It was good to talk to him and he helped me get a plan of action: not think about work, cry as much as I need to, and come to my appointment tomorrow. Also we got side tracked, but I think he was encouraging me to watch guilty pleasure tv.

I do need to call the temp agency back but I keep putting that off but I won't put it off for much longer. So that's what I'm doing

askye, brain chemistry is fucked yo. You wouldn't feel guilty if you, say, liver levels messed up and caused you distress.

You're taking the steps you need, and that is HEALTHY. And isn't it so much different than the non-action you might have taken a few years ago? You can get through this, and your counselor sounds very sensible!

All the best to you, dear.

Sounds like a good plan. And yes, watch something mindless and fun. Coddle yourself.

guilty pleasure tv.

my goodness. if only you could find a place on the Internet where people ALSO liked to watch tv AND talk about it.

I'm watching America's Top Model. the first episode of the new cycle.

And I went and got a cupcake before I came home. German Chocolate and it was really yummy.