Billytea, the Attenborough evening sounds fabulous. He's such an enthusiast, and it's infectious.

Sir David Attenborough

I want to be reincarnated as him.

Or his brother, Richard. The Overachieving Attenboroughs!

Thanks for helping me define a boundary, there!

You are welcome! He hasn't had sex with her, at least not yet. That may be an issue for me. He knows that I'm not seeing anyone nor am I planning to until I see where things go. But hey! I guess I can make out at Strix's party if I feel like it and the opportunity presents itself!

It's probably that she has better friends. Tom and I were total snoozefests last night.

Nuh uh! I thought Tom was quite funny, and you were your usual lively self. Z was the tired/stressed one.

I will not tell Tom about Z's revelations since he tends to be fiercely loyal and will consider this turn of events Less Than Honorable toward you. And we're hanging out tomorrow, so.

Ha! I'm picturing Tom smacking Z across the face with a glove and calling him a cad.

I liked the winking on OKC, and am sad it's gone. It was good for late night "hmm, you're cute but I can't think of anything witty right now."

Did he have an issue with the idea of you being into this other woman, smonster? Or an issue with her being connected to him or doing it in front of him?

I think that he was 1) unclear on the nuances of being bi, and having the common idea that it means "and" instead of "or" (at least for me) and 2) thought it meant I wasn't that into him. He keeps getting that idea, likely because I am having a hard time shifting out of the "play it cool" mode I got into with StW (which StW saw through anyway, but apparently Z does not).

I'm just wondering, since he's not interested in exclusivity, the mere concept shouldn't be a bother, so it's something about the how.

I don't think he's into poly or anything, I'm pretty sure he's a one-woman guy; he's just not sure yet that he wants a relationship with me.

I'm just feeling... vulnerable. Because I cancelled my plans last-minute to go over there, and expended a fair amount of (truthful) effort to explain myself and that I like him a lot and was finally feeling secure that he really likes me too, and then BOOM. I knew he was talking to other people, but didn't know he was seeing anyone else.

Part of me wants to see other people, too, but I think that's just a self-defensive impulse. ::shrugs::

Yeah, I understand the vulnerability. But it's good at least that you know where you stand on both sides so you're not dealing with the confusing signals so much.

It may be a self-defensive impulse, but that doesn't mean it's necessarily a bad one.

I feel like I would have twice the stress and anxiety about getting hurt/hurting someone else/making the right choice.

That could be true. You know what's best for you.

But in the meanwhile, you are fabulosity itself, you are smart, witty, lovely, and generous. That other girl better look out, because whoever ends up with you will be a super lucky person. I admire the way you live life out, that you keep on keeping on, and I believe there is future happiness for you out there.

That could be true. You know what's best for you.

I get overwhelmed by choices. I spent, like, twenty minutes in Office Depot yesterday just debating pens.

And thank you for the lovely compliments. I actually just texted Z letting him know that I was still processing that info, that it made me feel vulnerable, and that I would need to consider things carefully should he decide to have sex with Other Chick. We'll see how he responds to that.

Off to the market with R! She's turning out to be a delightful friend to hang out with.

I think that he was 1) unclear on the nuances of being bi, and having the common idea that it means "and" instead of "or" (at least for me) and 2) thought it meant I wasn't that into him.

But even if it meant and--he's doing "and" right now. Why should you anding be a problem?

Oh my stars and garters...I've missed so much! I need to go back...really far, to catch up, but in the meanwhile:

I loved that Attenborough report. What a delightful creature he is.

I spent, like, twenty minutes in Office Depot yesterday just debating pens.

This is totally me. And, smonster, I can't believe I've missed this development. I'm sending good thoughts your way and I'm proud of you for being in the game (in a way I totally am not right now), especially when it is a vulnerable, confusing endeavor.

I've been super-slug like for about a month. A little bit depressed (thanks to St. John's Wort, getting back on track), very busy with the pet company and basically eating/sleeping my way through the days.

This morning, got quite a jolt as there was a murder about 40 feet from my living room window. Very unusual for this area, EXTREMELY tense making until it became clear that the neighbor whose house the unfortunate fellow died in front of is out of town. Many detectives, a K-9 officer searching for who knows what and the incredibly surreal aspect of having cheery festival goers (my neighborhood is a historic district with a market/festival event every weekend) asking me if I knew the guy and how was he killed.

It completely shoved a doggy lama appointment I had scheduled this morning out of my mind. I feel terrible for spacing on the couple, but they were very understanding and rescheduled.

I was feeling pretty sorry for myself...for no sufficient reason...until I realized, I'm not that guy.

I have as much useful info to share on romantic relationships as I have on Tibetian saffron harvesting. Possibly less. But I hope all Bitches who end up giving it a try end up in whatever kind of relationship is most fullfilling to them.

What Calli said.

I am completely not prepared to get on a plane tomorrow, but I am heading to a party for my friends who got married earlier this year, so I guess I'm just not going to think about it for a few more hours.