Zen, good luck finding your "zen". (Or increasing your jedi skills so you can do the choking without leaving fingerprints).

I have found my zen, thanks! It is called vodka. I'm working on the Jedi Force-choking thing. I'm pretty sure there's profit in it.

My condolences, askye.

I fear I'm going to end up with them, though.

Not to sound negative but you were saying last night that you felt you weren't always able to give your absolute best to the critters you already have with you. You take good care of them but I fear adding two kittens will be very hard on you when you are already doing quite a lot. Kittens are a lot of work. Luckily they are always supercute and generally quite adoptable.

Yes, that's why the fear. I've got some organizations to call to see if anyone can foster them until they're adopted, but it's high kitten season, so I'm not expecting much. My sister called me, furious, when she found out I'd taken them to the vet instead of turning them over to Animal Control. "Have you learned nothing from my example?!?!?!" Um, I guess not?

I talked to the front desk guy at the vet about my flea situation; I didn't realize that you pretty much have to treat your yard and house year-round here for fleas, and that the mild winter (not one hard freeze) means it's going to be extra bad. In NC you can get away with just treating the animals. Not here, yo.

Now to eat lunch and do some work work and work errands mixed with personal errands. I have to buy a printer cartridge, woe is me.

I didn't realize that you pretty much have to treat your yard and house year-round here for fleas

We lived in Florida for two years, and we had them in to spray every few months, if I recall correctly. My friend's mom didn't, and poor Abner the ancient poodle was just raw with bites most of the time.

Oh, man. I opened up OKC for the first time today and had a message from the bandaid-ripped-off guy. Here's part of it: I do come on strong. I've tried aloof and I'm just not capable at this time (if ever): just too nerdy. I am decisive and I too trust my instincts (yet they fail me so consistently) and my instincts where that you are a catch (yes, even with the depression issues.) and they also told me that I'd lost you by the end of our date.

The ball is in your court [smonster]: feel free to contact me if you'd like to be my friend and if not, you'll never hear from me again. And yes I'd still like to take you sailing. (I really just want free skilled labor :) ) Good bye.

That first paragraph is so painfully me, too. Argh. Not sure what I'm going to do. Nothing for the moment, gonna let it percolate.

I do come on strong. I've tried aloof and I'm just not capable at this time (if ever): just too nerdy. I am decisive and I too trust my instincts (yet they fail me so consistently)

OMG, totes you (well, how you describe yourself a lot).

Leave it alone for a while, maybe, and reach out if you think he'd be a good friend? Maybe? I don't know. I suck at advice.

He's trying to make you feel guilty. Don't go for it. "No is a complete sentence."--Gavin de Becker, my not-so-secret security boyfriend. But then, this could be why I'm hopelessly single. But I just don't want you out somewhere with his tongue in your ear discussing your lack of chemistry. Instead of sensitivity, I sense manipulation, ie, prove you're a nice girl/ have faith I can change by meeting with me to say you won't fuck me.

I totally think he's a Nice Guy, rather than, you know, a...nice guy. Maybe I'm mean. though, in addition to clinically unlovable. Not being in love for two administrations probably does that to a person.

Combination of Vicodin and TENS made me sleep all morning and half the afternoon, but I'm feeling a little better now. Still not great, but I can walk around the house without too much pain.

and my instincts where that you are a catch (yes, even with the depression issues.) and they also told me that I'd lost you by the end of our date.

Hey, he's right you are a catch. But he also lost you. Rip the bandaid off. Nothing good comes from prolonging this. For him or for you. It's not even worth being "wanted" and "sought after" because you know you aren't into him so it'll just lead to guilt for stringing him along.