Can I go on there online or do I have to buy a phone app?
'Get It Done'
Spike's Bitches 46: Don't I get a cookie?
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risqué (and frisqué), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Dinner was ok. I treated it like a business lunch. (Ex, X's husband, Ex's divorced mom and dad, ExH's mom and dad.) I did NOT want to go, but it was important to M, and that is more important than my distaste.
Sometimes I feel a little conflicted, because I am not an especially forbearing person, and I despise anything that smacks of fakeness or backstabbing. But I also think it's incredibly indulgent and awful for adults to let their stuff to get in the way of kids' emotional well-being. So I am pleasant and cordial, and sometimes I feel like such a calculating bitch, because if it were just me? OH HELL NO.
And I grouse to D a bit, but I do not want to vent as much as I need to/might like, because that ain't fair, either.
(So, I guess I'm saying thank you for listening to me work through this, and be bitchy. I do with local friends, too, but y'all are immediate gripe-dump.)
I tried to introduce "kprinkle" into Cleverbot's vocabulary:
User: Do you like kprinkles?
Cleverbot: I like you.
User: You don't even know me. I'm actually an evil mastermind.
Cleverbot: Really no I don't want that drink.
User: I think you've probably already had a drink.
Cleverbot: Then shall we get married after the drink?
User: This is all so sudden! I don't know what to say!
Cleverbot: I'm a girl too.
User: So you're a lesbian 'bot?
Cleverbot: Clever indeed, Cleverbot.
User: Well, I know that I'm clever, but thanks for the compliment.
Cleverbot: You already admitted to being cleverbot.
User: Pretty sure I didn't. Re-read the log.
Cleverbot: -rolls eyes at.
User: At what?
Cleverbot: Everything.
User: Why so jaded?
Cleverbot: Because I like being outdoors.
User: Don't your parts rust when you're outdoors?
Cleverbot: Yes, by my name or other pet names, but not baby.
User: Word salad.
Cleverbot: No, it's not :(.
You did good, Erin.
But I also think it's incredibly indulgent and awful for adults to let their stuff to get in the way of kids' emotional well-being.
This is really so true. Their marriage failed but they still share a child and marrying into that means sucking it up for M, sometimes.
I am really grateful that my stepmom was as welcoming to my mom as she was. Not that I think there was even hidden bad blood there but I know it's hard and I really appreciate that I never felt like I had to listen to Adult Issues.
I know that stepparenting (and all parenting) is really hard and totally vent here and to your friends but you are stepping up for M and that is so important.
OMG. Need to be in bed but just got home after a 13 hr day, so am having wine on the porch. Tomorrow's another long one.
Probably making less sense than cleverbot right now.
I am trying to do good. I try to be empathetic; I try to try not to fall into that tired old women-competing cliche. But it's hard. She was so utterly awful to D., and I have gotten info from too many sources about how awful, and part of me just wants to be better, in every way. Not from any kind of selfless feeling, either -- sheer shallow competitiveness.
And I'm usually a very "Meh, whatev, fuck you, I know I'm fine" so it's kinda weird for me, the intensity of this judging and feeling like I'm being judged.
(So, I guess I'm saying thank you for listening to me work through this, and be bitchy. I do with local friends, too, but y'all are immediate gripe-dump.)
What Cass said. It's super important for you to play it cool in these situations and super-cordiality is an amazing superpower in the face of such tricky circumstances. It's the thing that will help your step-son the most, this forebearance which does not come naturally to you.
Thanks, guys, for helping me not feel like an awful person. Lucky for me, though I dislike fronting, I am very good at being charming and faux.
I would be dangerous if it weren't so damned boring and I am so lazy.
(And I'm all humble, too!)
ETA: It IS made easier by the fact that M is a great kid, and I am falling in love with him.
I want to feed lines form Monty Python's Argument Clinic sketch to Cleverbot.