I do feel a bit blinvisible here, smonster, but that makes it all the sweeter to see your reply!
I wish I were holding it together better. With my mom's mom's death it's a terrible time for me to be needy. OTOH, this is the culmination of at least a couple years of housing/income limbo and not being able to do what I want in my life because I've been tied up either with the disability issues or the 1/3 partner in a house issues. So I've been holding it together for a very long time now and it's kinda inevitable it would fray at some point.
That's a good point, Connie.
Sounds like a therapist is a great idea, Spidra. You have every right to be needy and to want someone to talk to, and I'm sorry your living situation makes that especially hard right now.
In the meantime, I gave my mom a gift certificate for massage 3 years ago (she has fibromyalgia and massage would be great for her). Due to her Catholic and other issues, she hasn't used it. So I'mma make an appt with that sucker. So at least if she catalyzed today's suckiness, she can help make it better. Even though she won't know that.
Nice, Spidra. It all comes around...
Did she ever sit on a knife that stuck out of her ass cheek?
Dammit, Hec, I resemble that remark. I will never live that down, not in my family, nor, apparently, on the intertubes.
Sean, Spidra, I have been there, done that with the depresso tunnel-of-doom (and probably will again.) I have to say, it keeps happening, but at least it gets shorter.
Here is my mantra, from the crankiest depresso bitch in the world:
Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.
Dotty Parker
I'm back home from the doctor.
So I am renting-to-own through my insurance company a Respironics® BiPAP® AVAPS® Noninvasive Ventilator. With added humdifier base. Final cost, before my insurance company will be about $7000. After insurance? Who can tell right now? We'll see.
Apparently it's a CPAP on steroids. It has a memory card and everything.
Oh, and a 10 inch wedge for my bed.
Yeah, C/BPAPs ain't cheap. And be careful of your mask, because they can be pricy to replace if your insurance doesn't have a deal for one free mask a year.
Spidra, I see you, but I have been bad about responding to people lately.
