Trudy update - She's still (planned) in surgery (or recovery but not all awake yet). When she's out of recovery and awake enough to text or call me all hopped up on drugs in a an hour or couplefew, I will Beep You.

And the Ambien has been pitched into the drop box at the police station. Five tablets were in the bottle. I talked to the NP about it, and she has prescribed trazadone in its place.

sj, I hope your experience with the nutritionist is a good one.

Thanks for the update, Cass. Still thinking good thoughts for Trudy's surgical team and for her healing process.

Is it really either Ambien or trazadone for prescription sleep meds? I can't convince my migraine specialist to up my Ambien script, because he needs to talk to the sleep specialist. But she's the dancing nutcase, so I really don't want her determining my medicine. Still, 10mg does not reliably get me through the night. That much is not up for debate. It is, however, worlds better than trazadone for me.

You guys I just don't even know anymore I have a MtF trans friend arguing that women just inherently want to get married and have babies, a fairly feminist friend "liking" Tucker Max and another friend arguing that he knows the Republicans don't support his rights as a gay man, but he's not really affected by that as much as he is by the Democrats increasing his taxes.

Fuck, it's not the people I disagree with it's the people I do who are going to make me throw in the towel.

Is it really either Ambien or trazadone for prescription sleep meds? I can't convince my migraine specialist to up my Ambien script, because he needs to talk to the sleep specialist. But she's the dancing nutcase, so I really don't want her determining my medicine. Still, 10mg does not reliably get me through the night. That much is not up for debate. It is, however, worlds better than trazadone for me.

The NP I saw mentioned a couple of other options, but I didn't know the names, so they didn't stick in my head. But based on the fact that my mother used trazadone successfully for quite some time, we're betting on that as being a good choice to try next. No guarantees that I will have the same results as my mother did, but there are some similarities of biochemistry in her system and mine, as we have had similar reactions to a few other things.

I have a MtF trans friend arguing that women just inherently want to get married and have babies

In discussion recently (and I wish I could remember with who), it was raised that it might be likely that someone who's experienced gender dysphoria might be more conventional about gender stereotypes, rather than less, as I would have guessed--I mean, I thought if you'd had to live one side while being another, you'd get that these things have shades of grey. But the person I had the convo with (my mother?) said instead that not having enough shades of grey was probably part of the problem.

I don't want to say there's one way that transgendered people think, but I do know that part of the reason that I don't get the dysphoria is because I don't believe in the gender distinctions as much as many people do--I see a sex one, and then the rest of it is handwaving for me. Total cis privilege. I get that some people feel a pressure from a conflict between their sex and their gender, but I have the luxury of not feeling restricted by my gender, since I figure I can do most anything I want, up to and including peeing standing up.

Lunesta, Restoril and (for me) anti-anxieties can quiet my brain enough for sleep but doctors kinda hate that.

I've heard that Lunesta is good for the through the night problems but I get that next day aftertaste thing from it and it's worst with water so I don't take it.

Also MtF trans lesbian. You'd think she'd see that there are more things in heaven and earth...

Thank you though for that insight. I was really at a loss, but I can see what you're saying.

Cass, thanks for the Trudy update.

WS, I hope the new meds work better for you.

Today's appointment turned out to be with a doctor at the weight center. So I am no officially approved to see a nutritionist on my next appoint. So, one more hoop jumped through. She did say that she didn't think the ideal weight that I picked would be sustainable for me. I thought she was actually going to try to convince me to lose more since the weight I picked was nowhere near the ideal for my height on the BMI. I get to track everything I eat between now and my next appointment, starting tomorrow.

She also wanted me to consider seeing the exercise physiologist, but considering that I am already going to be seeing a physical therapist and the physiologist is pricey, I'm not doing that for now.