I hope so too. D loves me, and he doesn't want to be without me...but he would like to be closer to M, too.

I'm just giving him a little time and space to think things through, and I hate to be ultimatum girl, but...I'd be reluctant to move to San Fran or Seattle or some other fun cool city where I know lots of peeps.

But Buck County, PA? No. Fucking. Way.

Clarity is key, Erin. I'm glad you have it. As we all know, a vague disclaimer is nobody's friend and your forthright self-awareness is admirable in a situation that would could easily be muddy.

I'm hoping this is a familial phase that soon passes into practicality and strategic planning. Inconvenience can be managed, emotions can be weathered. Healthy coping ~ma to all involved.

OOof, Erin, that's tough, especially since M's mom doesn't exactly have a history of being...helpful. Good luck.

yeah, that's another world of NO. Close enough to hang with M means close to all the crazy. I could deal with it if she lived in town or something, but you know shit would get real awfully fast.

I can be very civil at a distance, but I think she would all be up in our shit all the time and WORLD OF NO.

Wasn't she not supposed to move that far away in the first place? And what on earth would stop her from doing so again?

Zenkitty, sending ~ma for your sister.

Yeah, that's another thing. She moved from KC to Minn, got hitched to the guy who'd been living in the house she made D move out of, but pay for, and then he was unemployed for a year (it's hard to get into sound design gigs in MN, apparently @@, and he got a job at Lehigh, which is a decent school.

No. I do not want.

The one thing I'll note, Erin, is that in custody situations everything seems to hang on one, binary, either-or choice, but the reality in most cases is that you wind up finessing it in ways that you can't really imagine.

Maybe Micah comes out for a longer stretch in the summer. Maybe D makes an extra trip or two to the East Coast. Maybe they take a trip together, and that concentrated time makes a difference. Maybe when Micah gets older he goes to college closer to you guys. Maybe they play a shit-ton of World of Warcraft online together.

You can't really imagine all the ways the your husband and his son will build their relationship, but it will happen because it's important to them both. You just take every opportunity you can to maximize their time together and it makes a difference.

But you can't make it not sad, or not difficult. That's just part of the divorce itself.

God, would you talk to D?? Because I BRING up all this stuff, and he gets hit with guilt for missing piano recitals (M's at Twinkle Twinkle) and PT conferences, and they talk almost every night, and Skype 2-3 times a week.

I just told him we need to work on way to see M more often.

I told him all these things.

Ack. Horrid pre-sleep convo. I need to step away and relax.

Thanks, guys.

Sounds like she's had a real change of heart about her son being near his father and she should start looking for jobs in the midwest, huh?

'Cuz if you move there and Lehigh has a budget cut? She'd be gone again.

It's a shitty thing she does to her son and I really don't know if Dan could fix it by following her everywhere.