Har! The Dean's office chair is missing after building services took it down to the loading dock - which happens to also be the dumpster area - to clean it and left it there. Har!

I probably wouldn't find this so amusing if I wasn't surrounded by not-at-all-amusing work stuff.

My mood can sometimes drop dramatically—usually after a call from my mom

HA! Sorry, that's not bipolar, that's just normal. Especially considering your mom. No offense intended.

You say your mood returns to baseline after you sleep - what's baseline for you? Positive or negative, and to what degree?

Bipolar can be fast cycling (moods change rapidly over the course of a day) or slow (moods last days or weeks). Manias are frequently followed by a dramatic crash.

Have you ever engaged in or thought about self-harming behavior? Suicide? You don't have to answer me here, if you don't feel comfortable (email me if you like), but these are the kinds of things that are common in serious bipolar and depression.

From what you've said, mild depression (if anything), would seem to be what's affecting you. Once again, NOT A DOCTOR, so if you are at all concerned you should go talk to a professional. My analysis is from my experience with a bipolar sister with BPD and thyroid issues, a dysthymic brother, a boyfriend with OCD/severe anxiety, two parents in denial about their own issues, and me? Major depressive disorder or mixed depression.

Mental health bingo, anyone?

Steph, when does magic beer time start?

Can it start now please? Like, right now?

Mental health bingo, anyone?

I wanna make the cards! *bounce* *bouncebounce*

Steph, when does magic beer time start?

You know, I'm not sure. Soon, I'm thinking, because the Oktoberfest beers are long since released, and then winter beers are the next specialty beers to be released.

Man, I hope it's while I'm out in the Anderson Valley area.

::jealous::

Magic beer is apparently available!!! Though I have no idea how widely it's distributed just yet.

So. I woke up feeling really dizzy and hungry and faint. Climbed back into bed, not sure if I actually fainted or just fell back asleep, woke up again three hours later, still feeling the same. Just ate two big bowls of caesar salad, feeling slightly better, but still way dizzier than I should after sitting up and eating. No clue what's going on here.

I've always been baffled by the "thoughts of suicide" warning. I presume it means "thoughts of committing suicide yourself", but the tiniest voice in my psyche pauses and goes, "Do normal people not even think about the subject?" I've had a clear understanding of my own mortality since I was young--thanks all you relatives that died when I hit puberty, causing me to be dragged to lots of funerals and viewings--and I've mulled over my own death for years, considering the causes, the effects on those around me, etc.

Do others not do this? Is the average person aware only intellectually that they are mortal?

There needs to be an addition to the header on this thread: "We are not licensed therapists, but we're happy to talk about it. Have you considered professional help?" Though that could be taken badly, I guess.

I think everyone could benefit from counseling. For once, no irony or wiseassedness intended.(Mark your calendars!)

You say your mood returns to baseline after you sleep - what's baseline for you? Positive or negative, and to what degree?

In the middle. If I'm feeling shitty the night before, when I wake up, I feel fine, as if the weight has been lifted. If I'm feeling totally awesome the night before, when I wake up, I feel fine, as if things are back to normal. It's a pretty neutral baseline, probably tending toward negative but that's just because, you know, waking up.

Bipolar can be fast cycling (moods change rapidly over the course of a day) or slow (moods last days or weeks). Manias are frequently followed by a dramatic crash.

I don't think I've really experienced cycling, but I do frequently crash after coming home from a great night out. But it's usually down to that baseline, not down into the wah wah mood. And that has to be normal, right?

Have you ever engaged in or thought about self-harming behavior? Suicide? You don't have to answer me here, if you don't feel comfortable (email me if you like), but these are the kinds of things that are common in serious bipolar and depression.

I have never engaged in it, but I've sometimes thought about it, or, more accurately, thought about thinking about it. Like, in the moment, it seems like something I ought to do, but I wouldn't really do it.

From what you've said, mild depression (if anything), would seem to be what's affecting you.

If I were actually dysthymic, I would be frequently feeling down for no reason, right? I think I generally have a reason.

Thanks for listening, guys. It's something that's always been in the back of my head for years, but I've never really considered the possibility that I could do anything about it. I think it's probably just life, though? I'm not actually keen on medicating myself. Unless something is actually wrong with me. Maybe.

Is the average person aware only intellectually that they are mortal?

I don't know! I'm like you. Sometimes when I'm driving I think about what one quick jerk of the wheel to the right could do, just in an "I could be gone at any moment" kind of way.

I think everyone could benefit from counseling.

I went to one in college once, and it made me uncomfortable, so I never tried it again.