I'm almost four years older than my sister, and the minute my parents explained my mother's bump to me I was all "Ooh! Evil scientist time!" I'm not going to say I understood the books I was reading, but I read very early and was voraciously reading child development books when they were honestly still talking about me, and trying to leverage what I could parse out of them onto her.
I poked and prodded her wee brain and tried to make her turn out the way I wanted her to. Jury's out on my actual success, because she's batshit crazy, but she's brilliant too. I'm proud of the little sis.
I spent a lot of time with her and her friends throughout school, all the way into University, and often shepherded them around.
The behavior and the attachment bear it out, but I'm not sure he would acknowledge that role, simply because I'm not sure he would believe he could actually fill it.
It would be fascinating if Sam came to that realisation before Dean did. It's interesting to think of Dean just doing what Dean thought had to be done--even if the circumstances weren't normal, it was just necessary. I hadn't really thought about it that way. I'd considered him more conscious in that role, but when you talk about the self-esteem aspect of acknowledging it, I can see that angle too.
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My brain is capable of separating the two spheres.
My brain, NSM. I scream about the little things "He only loved Cassie!" so the bigger things make my logic centres jump up and down and go ballistic.
I'd considered him more conscious in that role, but when you talk about the self-esteem aspect of acknowledging it, I can see that angle too.
Well, "mother" was revered. I can't see him ever thinking he could replace her, even if that's what he was, in fact, doing. And until very recently, "father" was, if not always revered, kind of "all" to him, so I can't see him believing he would be worthy of that.
He did what had to be done, because he loved Sam, and because his father charged him with the job. In the beginning, I'm sure caring for Sam had more to do with pleasing John than actual fondness for a toddler, a preschooler, etc. (I mean, he was just a kid, after all, and one who had his own wants -- the sweet cereal, playing video games, etc.).
Which is not to say he didn't come to love Sam for who Sam was later, because I think he absolutely did.
the minute my parents explained my mother's bump to me I was all "Ooh! Evil scientist time!"
I was much more selfish. "Ooh! Someone to play student to my teacher!" Which he very willingly did for a long time.
My brain is capable of separating the two spheres.
I'm sorry. Rereading, that sentence sounds bitchy. I just always feel like I have to justify reading wincest -- no, I'm not a pervert who thinks real-life siblings should act like that. I can tell the difference between fictional characters in a fictional universe hunting supernatural creatures who had a dysfunctional upbringing and are abnormally close. (Don't judge me!) So anyway, that's where the bitchiness comes from. Wasn't aimed at you.
and the minute my parents explained my mother's bump to me I was all "Ooh! Evil scientist time!"
I was bummed when my sister's twins turned out to be fraternal. They were no longer ideal test subjects.
My dad doesn't get anything remotely scary or paranormal
My mom doesn't at ALL. And she'll be here next week. Well, technically, she'll be here Saturday, but she doesn't impact my tv time until Thurs, so... Still, she knows to just give me the tv on Thursdays and go read a book in her room.
But fraternal twins are excellent test subjects for womb-sharing vs. genetics.
They've got my sister and b-i-l as parents. They're kinda screwed either way.
My mother is all WHY MUST WE HAVE METAPHORS? THEY JUST GET IN THE WAY OF THE STORY. My father doesn't really do fiction. Or didn't before he retired. Mostly they watch the news, but I have a very strict "host picks the TV, guest shuts their cakehole" rule in my apartment.
And now it's time to unsub from the thread. (While REMEMBERING to resub later, brain, resub later.)
See you all after the show!
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