See, if I had a chance to sit down with any of the SPN actors or writers, I would jump at the chance. Like, sit down and have a conversation. Like ita, though, I hate the crowd aspect of how they would all be in my way. And standing in line for hours to get an autograph and the chance to seem hi would be a big waste of time for me.

But if I could interview them? That would be awesome.

Maybe. If I wasn't there as a fan girl. I'd have lots of fun partying with you guys instead of standing in a line.

I will never know enough fans to make going for the people a thing, unless it were a Buffista-related event. But I can see that being a draw, if you already have a bunch of friends there.

Maybe like Allyson's parties, but with cons attached. Even so, I worked those, so it was different. They were a job, they were helping out a friend, and they were mini-Buffista-F2Fs. With some actors and writers and stuff there.

TWO WEEKS!

(that's when I'll be at a fan con in Seattle, with Plei and SA and Dana)

Which one, Perkins?

That would be fun I think.

It's in Seattle. I gave a passing thought to going because Perkins and Plei and SA and Dana, and it's in Seattle.

See, if it was JUST Perkins and SA and Plei and Dana, OKAY! But it will be all those OTHER people, who I'm sure are perfectly lovely people, and fannish and mostly so in a way similar to the way I am. But, no. Too many, too many strangers.

That's why Plai and I are going to be anti-social together!

Or, better yet, you can't find those people, which means you're them, and everyone's looking at you.

Yeah, when I had people from Best Brains acting skittish and asking me if what I was giving them was a bomb, I knew I'd crossed the rubicon and was one of those people.

I'd love to visit Colin at a con. I wouldn't do any connish things except look and listen over people's shoulders, speak when spoken to, and schreech with his GF, Back in the day when I hung with local comedians I always wanted to be "that girl" the one who didn't look like talents or like she was sleeping with them, so why was she there? Maybe for travelling comedians to sleep with?

Nah. Just that once. Lady of mystery.

And most of my friends stopped schmoozing the festival, so I had no official reason to go to them, but the staff knew my name and face and let me into things so I did it solo until I spotted somone -- a John Rogers or a Dave Chappele that I knew outside the crazy or a friend doing an interview. Then you have a home base from which you can walk up to a complete stranger and start a conversation based "That's a bold choice for a shirt. Didn't they have it in a natural fiber?" Partly those people.