I just had a horrible D/C plot bunny: AU of Angels with Dirty Faces, with Dean as Rocky, Cas as Jerry, and Sam de-aged to play one of the Bowry Boys who idolizes Dean. Crowley as the crooked lawyer Frazier.

Horrible because Dean dies.

Horrible because Sam's belief in Dean gets broken.

So I just had to go and rewatch Afterschool Special, and I'm so glad I'm not the only one turned off by young Dean.

But what really got me was Dirk's story. I don't know, but I found myself overwhelmingly saddened by Dirk's circumstances. It's one thing to be a sympthatetic victim. But to be a dude putting on a front to deal with your issues, known for your jerkitude, outed for your lameness, and therefore all of that equalling you having no one to turn to for help or sympathy. I don't think I'm expressing it right. Like, in the scheme of things where we are all people with stories and issues, where the victims and underdogs get the sympathy (where the matter of them being individuals that are really worthwhile human beings is debateable) that it's nigh impossible to have the support system to help you when your own daily support system (of being a bully, putting on a front of being tough) is undermined.

Which makes me think of Dean, and maybe that's where the writer's were going with in regards to his embarrassing shouts of "hero!" at the end. He's got this front, this daily support system that gets him through the day. And it's undermined. And he just looks like a jerk. And if he hadn't had that front, maybe he'd have been sympathetic to others, and recieved sympathy and support. But he just looked like a jerk and was abandoned to his own devices. And you've gotta keep that front at that point. Especially when you're not going to get allies. Better to pretend you don't need them.

Jared continues to be adorable.

Huh.

When and why was he inexplicably in my 'hood? [link]

One thing I love about that sneak peek is how both Sam and Dean grab for words...and don't find them. They're not pithy, they're not snappy (well, there are a couple of Dean-mots), but there are moments where they're just too overcome with just...whatever to be able to finish the sentence properly.

It makes me want to hug them, if that's not a visually ludicrous proposition. Boys!

Seattle isn't that far from Vancouver, right?

Ooh, as soon as I hit post, I came up with a completely ridiculous theory, like Gen and Jared want the baby born Stateside, so Gen is staying in JDM's Seattle place (because in my head he has one, okay?) so Jared can get to her quicker on weekends until the sprog is sprung.

I should write for Weekly World News.

Dean-mots

Heh. That's a keeper.

Nope, not too far. Couple hours.

But if Seattle, then seriously, my neighborhood?

I'd think you'd want a child of American parents born in Canada for the dual citizenship as a bonus shower gift.

Raisin Bran: Just ran across a High School AU story in which Ellen, Bobby, Jo, and Sam take Dean to a PFLAG meeting and he doesn't realize it's for his benefit: [link]

I did not know how badly I needed to read about this situation until someone wrote it!

I'm reading someone's season 6 meta analysis (from a D/C bent, natch) and I'm disagreeing with a lot of the groundwork. They claim that clearly Cas was wrong to do what he did to stop Raphael and the second apocalypse because it didn't work.

But it DID.

It just brought on a slew of other world-ending problems that NO ONE could have anticipated, no matter how much Dean wants to retroactively rewrite the reasons why Cas not listening to him was wrong. Dean didn't freaking know there would be Leviathans.

And then I randomly began likening it to the crap we've done to mess up the environment. Like, hey, we've got this bug affecting our citrus crops, let's bring in the Asian Lady Bird beetle. And then the solution turns into a problem in itself. And a hundred other things we've done in the name of solving a problem, not realizing the consequences. Yeah, hindsight is 20/20, but it's not a a valid reason to say "I told you so" when there was no evidence to support you at the time.

Oh Dean and your ultimatums and absolutes.