Argh, that's right. Must not rely on memory.

I think (know) your tolerance for the bleak far surpasses mine. Because while I didn't hate her other fics as much as Farewell to the Flesh, her BB went through a lot of Bleak shit before it got to anything resembling positive. It's like Sunshine of the Spotless Mind in reverse.

Damn. I don't know if it's better suited to Leverage or Supernatural, but someone needs to make an I'm a badass liar scammer vid to Kool Moe Dee's I Go To Work. Either would be perfect.

As for the last line of Foolish, I'm assuming it's Dean talking to Cas, telling him that he won't believe in him in the future (predicting Point of No Return) and shutting him out.

her BB went through a lot of Bleak shit before it got to anything resembling positive. It's like Sunshine of the Spotless Mind in reverse.

This last one? I'm confused. Dean was messed up, but I saw hope for him all the way through. I really didn't think it was bleak at all.

Of course, I despised Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Just the pages and pages of everything was falling apart on all fronts. Dean got the girl and lost her, got the guy and did everything to push him away, Ben a complete fucking dick (read: teenager).

the whole time I was reading I saw no hope. I thought it was truly going to end with Dean losing everyone permanently all over again.

Maybe that's why I can handle bleak, because even though stuff was messed up, I assumed it would get less so. I figured the arc was Dean getting over his shit and actually noticing Cas for himself and getting past his issues with him. And I wasn't surprised to find out he was in denial because of something that had happened between them that he was avoiding talking about.

What was depressing and stayed so? Sam. I hate that.

Oh god, yes, on that last part. Just, ugly and gross.

And yet, haruslex makes it hurt so good.

I thought bauble earned that decently well. I just never like that. It makes me grumpy.

You know who you should never read, Julie? Sansday. She writes pre-Endverse fic that makes me so angry. But I keep reading it, because its dysfunction has me hooked. Castiel is a manipulative prick, and Dean just can't get unentangled. I'm pissed every time I realise I'm reading her again, but I can't stop.

And the sex is hot.

I'm pretty sure there will never be a happy ending in this 'verse--I don't know if she's even going to get to show level 2014 emotional detente,

Can't stop!

Thanks for the warning. I pretty much skip anything labeled endverse these days.

Am torturing myself with the unfinished soup kitchen fic. All the mystery!

Her stuff's not tagged Endverse, which is why I keep forgetting it. She calls it Fallout verse. She gets linked to from the newsletter fairly often, and I think she posts on deancastiel.

But if you ever get a hankering for bastard!porn, she's your woman.

I'm tempted to go back to the soup kitchen too. Then maybe I could do the Peanut Butter Pumpkin Cake story to make me feel better. I don't like all of it, but the bits I like I like a lot.

Hmm. Julie, as a fellow AU-lover, which would you say is your favourite, D/C or not? I'm gonna have to think about that for a while.