Wow, you've really mastered the power of positive giving-up.

Cordelia ,'End of Days'


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Ginger - Jan 13, 2009 6:33:26 am PST #7722 of 10000
"It didn't taste good. It tasted soooo horrible. It tasted like....a vodka martini." - Matilda

I don't think karma applies if you were doing a good deed. May you would have been sicker if you hadn't stayed home? Anyway, I hope your intestines behave soon.

Bonny, I know you want him with you always, but I hope you can find peace with whatever happens. Think how very lucky you are to have had him this long.


Nora Deirdre - Jan 13, 2009 6:34:36 am PST #7723 of 10000
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

Hanging out with the boys here at home- they seem to be doing pretty well.


SuziQ - Jan 13, 2009 6:38:12 am PST #7724 of 10000
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame

Yesterday, I worked from home due to the snow and not wanting to make K-Bug drive on the ice and slush.

Today, the car battery was dead this morning so I got to work late (thanks for the quick response AAA).

So far no one here has complained. I still feel like a bad employee.


Sean K - Jan 13, 2009 6:44:30 am PST #7725 of 10000
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty

Vortex, if comforting your friend was deserving of bad karma, even if you called in fake sick to do it, then I'm a unicorn that flies and shits money.


beekaytee - Jan 13, 2009 6:45:24 am PST #7726 of 10000
Compassionately intolerant

Bonny, I know you want him with you always, but I hope you can find peace with whatever happens. Think how very lucky you are to have had him this long.

I'm impressed by my own panic. I live firmly in the 'everything happens as it should' school of thought, but in the middle of typing my ma request post, I started shaking and crying...overcome with the idea of the anchor in my universe shifting so dramatically.

The truth is, I'd much rather he go than suffer. When I saw him last week, he still seemed so strong, but there was an air of deflation around him and I started to worry. When I got the news from Niki, it was as if that hunch was confirmed and it is time to armor up and be ready. I just didn't feel ready enough, if that makes sense.

I'm borrowing a car and going up this afternoon as soon as I finish with my clients to help Niki get ready for Gordon's son to visit tomorrow.

I'm sad for her, if this is it, but quite selfiishly, I'm sad that when Gordon goes, Niki will move to CA to be with her daughters who have children.

I have been so blessed with them. They are such a signficant part of my life, and that will never change of course. But...


Shir - Jan 13, 2009 6:47:37 am PST #7727 of 10000
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".

{{{bonny}}}

~mas to you and your family (of choice - the one that counts).


Glamcookie - Jan 13, 2009 6:49:02 am PST #7728 of 10000
I know my own heart and understand my fellow man. But I am made unlike anyone I have ever met. I dare to say I am like no one in the whole world. - Anne Lister

{{{bonny}}} Holding Gordon, Niki, and you in my thoughts today. You wrote a touching tribute to him.


omnis_audis - Jan 13, 2009 6:50:14 am PST #7729 of 10000
omnis, pursue. That's an order from a shy woman who can use M-16. - Shir

Karma's a bitch
Nonsense. You are clairvoyant. Tummy~ma to ya. Did you take today off as well?

So far no one here has complained. I still feel like a bad employee.
Suzi, I learned in HS psych class that guilt is a "useless emotion" because you fret over things that are done and can not be changed. In this case, you are fretting about the weather, and it's effects on daily life. Should you have stayed up all night turning over the engine every 2 hours to keep the battery alive? No! You'd be groggy and sleepy and of little use, and folks would be like "you did what all night? are you insane?". Should you risk life/limb to drive in bad conditions when you can work from home? No. You got stuff done at home. That is what makes telecommuting so wonderful. You are not a bad employee!!!

Me on the other hand. Ya. Avoiding work. But then again, I'll be here until midnight or so.


Shir - Jan 13, 2009 6:53:30 am PST #7730 of 10000
"And that's why God Almighty gave us fire insurance and the public defender".

I'm avoiding writing a paper right now AIFG.

(Or not, because I don't have the time to avoid it).

Good luck with the Genesis play! And whitefont the spoilers!


SuziQ - Jan 13, 2009 6:56:07 am PST #7731 of 10000
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame

Thanks omnis. You are right. I can't change the past, just move forward. And no one seems to be worried about it, just me and my overactive brain.

I think I've been so stressed about the move and the house and all the other stuff, now that things are settling down, my brain doesn't know what to do with itself.

I just didn't feel ready enough, if that makes sense.

Bonny, that makes perfect sense and I don't know anyone who was every "ready", no matter how certain the situation.