It's mostly/kind of relationship stuff. I'm bad at letting myself depend on other people. CBD is helping me with some stuff that is filled with baggage for me (money, actually), and it freaks me out that he won't be able to handle it, and he'll leave...or that I'll lose independence that I've fought so hard for.
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vw bug - Nov 09, 2008 11:04:44 am PST #726 of 10000
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Barb - Nov 09, 2008 11:06:31 am PST #727 of 10000
“Not dead yet!”
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Since all sorts of baking goodies are appearing for the holidays, I suspect I'll be making a batch of the Black Forest cookies I only make at this time of year. They're basically a very chunky oatmeal cookie with chocolate chips, chopped dried cherries, pecans, and coconut and with a kirsch glaze drizzled over them while they're still warm.
They're seriously of the nom and I don't even like oatmeal cookies as a rule.
askye - Nov 09, 2008 11:07:52 am PST #728 of 10000
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vw bug - Nov 09, 2008 11:08:17 am PST #729 of 10000
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Oooo..Barb, those do sound yum. In I'm-not-of-the-fail news, I made a baked brie with apples and dried cherries last night for a party that CBD went to. It was gone 20 minutes into the party, and he's insisting that I make it for Thanksgiving it was just that good. So, I do some things right...
DavidS - Nov 09, 2008 11:12:56 am PST #730 of 10000
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."
It's mostly/kind of relationship stuff. I'm bad at letting myself depend on other people. CBD is helping me with some stuff that is filled with baggage for me (money, actually), and it freaks me out that he won't be able to handle it, and he'll leave...or that I'll lose independence that I've fought so hard for.
That sounds like perfectly normal grown-up anxieties and issues. I'm not seeing the fail there.
Barb - Nov 09, 2008 11:13:08 am PST #731 of 10000
“Not dead yet!”
'Course you do, silly.
And was the brie in pastry or nekkid?
vw bug - Nov 09, 2008 11:15:16 am PST #732 of 10000
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I just want to be all strong and independent and not need anyone or their money or whatever. I feel like a leech and gold-digger, and I KNOW that's not the case. I do; and so does he. But, it's hard to convince myself otherwise.
Edited to fix spelling
vw bug - Nov 09, 2008 11:16:12 am PST #733 of 10000
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It was nekkid brie. I should have taken a picture. It was beautiful, if I do say so myself.
beth b - Nov 09, 2008 11:22:06 am PST #734 of 10000
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!
CBD is helping me with some stuff that is filled with baggage for me (money, actually), and it freaks me out that he won't be able to handle it, and he'll leave...or that I'll lose independence that I've fought so hard for.
Actually, that sounds like a grown-up worry for me. It took awhile to for DH and I to figure that part out after we were living together. It is only wrong if the situation was reversed, you wouldn't help him.
Barb - Nov 09, 2008 11:27:05 am PST #735 of 10000
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