Hil, what meds were they giving you? When they give me compazine or dilaudid without benadryl I tend to anxiety attacks and feel a huge urge to rip out the needle and run for the hills.

No meds, actually. They put the needle in to take blood, and they were going to give me something for the headache and nausea, but the headache and nausea were really not that bad, and it seemed like it was mostly, "Well, of all the complaints you have, there's one we know how to fix, so let's fix it!" I really didn't feel like putting another drug into my body to fix a minor problem just so that it would seem like they were doing something, and I told them that, and they said OK and didn't give me the drug. But left the stupid needle in my arm for another hour, anyway.

ah yes, treating the symptom, not the problem.

treating the symptom, not the problem.

And yet I go in with just a symptom to be treated and get grief.

Though, I must be honest, it's not been that bad recently. There must have been a meeting--and my specialist says he was leaning on them. They ask me what I usually get, and then give it almost always to me, despite being surprised at the number of drugs (4--used to be 5) and the dosages. I have to admit I'm kinda sad they're so used to me.

to improve your mental health by starting out the year not working at current job. Yay!

I agree! So why won't my brain let me sleep.

There must have been a meeting--and my specialist says he was leaning on them.

Way to go Mr. Specialist. At least you don't have to start from scratch every time and convince every attending you're not a junkie.

The ER also offered me a free HIV test. I said no, and they needed a reason why I was refusing. Apparently, "It's 4:30 in the morning, I've been here since midnight, and I want to go HOME" is not a good enough reason. Why do they need a reason? The guy wouldn't leave until I'd given him a reason to write down on his clipboard.

WindSparrow, I've tried a neti pot, and I'm trying to decide if the feeling of almost drowning is worth any possible relief at this point.

Maybe they should call it Netiboarding.

I hope you feel better soon, you poor girl.

Thank you, I do feel much, much better. Just in time to go back to work. Thhbbbbpt on the Vacation Fairie that planned this one. I hope you find some relief for your angry, angry sinuses.

ita, I'm glad your specialist has made your trips to the ER go a bit more smoothly, but yeah, it really does suck that you have to make them so often.

WTF HIV test bullies, Hil? I would have very slowly and in that "talking to the hard of hearing" tone, repeated "It's 4:30 in the morning, I've been here since midnight, and I want to go HOME - no, really that IS what I want you to write down. See, if y'all were serious about it, you would have asked in a more timely fashion."

When that wasn't a good enough answer, I tried, "I don't need it," and that was good enough, it seemed. Really, "I don't want it" seems like a much better answer than "I don't need it" -- the first one is at least definitely the truth, while the second could very well be false.

Woke up. One more day for the weekend. Could have used more sleep, silly late to sleep me.

And so bored online that I just emailed my dad this morning a list of "hey, what's up?" questions. He didn't answer yet, but I already regret it.

Headlines today says Jordan implored Israel not to go on operation on Gaza Strip. One of the "yeah, I already know the answer to this question, but for the slim chance something's new" questions I sent my dad was if we're gonna visit my sister in her base this weekend. I fear they might shut down families' visits for a while, until things will cool down a little bit.

No lay off~ma to billytea.