Thanks for the kitty~ma. Casper is healthy as a horse! Woohoo!

Sean, please listen to these smart people. Take a night off. You need a couple of days away to help rebuild your mental and emotional reserves a bit.

Also, and please stick me in the buttinsky corner with Barb for saying this, I really hope you are seeing a therapist right now. I think it is essential for you to have a professional who can help monitor your own mental health and help you to make the best, healthiest decisions for yourself.

Love you.

damn this corner of concern is gonna get crowded.

Sean, stay home! If she is in/out of lucidness, there is nothing you can do. There is nothing wrong with visiting every few days. You need to keep your wits about you, or you are no use to her when she comes out of it all. Isn't her family around? If not, guilt trip them. She's your ex after all. You have a big project on your plate right now. I remember from last year. Oy vey it wipes you out walking around that place. Put your feet up. Take a nap. Go to bed. Have a beer. Smoke a bowl. Write a kick ass DnD campaign. Something that allows you time to recharge your batteries, what ever that may be.

:: shuffles into the corner with the others ::

Sean, you won't do anyone any favors, including yourself, if you push yourself until you collapse.

I just need her to come out of this.

I need her to come back, and I don't know if it's going to happen. I feel like it's not.

Oh honey. I know that none of us can tell you it's all going to be okay, but I wish we could. All I can tell you is that you are not alone, no matter what happens, and we will be here for you throughout. Please take care of yourself. Please don't try to do this alone. Please, please, please keep checking in and keep talking so we know you are still here. I am so worried about you (in case I haven't mentioned it). I'm concerned that this sustained level of trauma could lead to PTSD (and I'm serious about this, not using hyperbole). I don't know what else to do for you except to keep saying we're here and urging you to be good to our beloved Sean.

I wish I could tell you something you do could change the outcome. This is her fight.Honestly, if she does know you are there for her -- when you are physically there for her doesn't matter. Because you are there, even when you aren't sitting next to her.

I need her to come back, and I don't know if it's going to happen. I feel like it's not.

As beth notes, you're not the difference in her getting better. You feel guilty. You broke up with her. She needs help. You care for her.

But you're not going to be the difference in whether she comes out of this or not. It is not under your control. It is not your responsibility even.

So quit pushing yourself to the edge physically and emotionally.

Because you're not helping her. And you're definitely hurting yourself.

Be there for her when it matters. Let the doctors and nurses do their job.

Hec is wise.

ION, I hate the insomnia fairy. She's visiting again, and I thought I made it clear to her last time that she was not welcome.

Skipping and skimming tonight.

I guess I would have to propose one should spend a good amount of time on Youtube watching Grammar Rock classics.

Of course, I do that anyway....