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Sean K - Aug 15, 2008 10:46:43 am PDT #1840 of 10001
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty

So S comes back from Texas tonight. This will be the first time I've seen her in about two weeks.

The next few weeks and months are just going to suck. I know I've hurt her and broken her heart worse than anybody ever has. It sucks. I care about her enough that I just want to hold her, and make everything better.

But I can't give her what she wants, which is for me to be happy in a relationship with her, and want to stay.

I really wish things hadn't turned out like this. It makes me very sad, for both of us.

Nora Deirdre - Aug 15, 2008 10:52:19 am PDT #1841 of 10001
I’m responsible for my own happiness? I can’t even be responsible for my own breakfast! (Bojack Horseman)

{{Sean}} I'm sorry. How long are you two going to be living together? Because that is (obviously) going to make everything harder for both of you...

Sean K - Aug 15, 2008 11:09:31 am PDT #1842 of 10001
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty

Unknown. It's probably going to be at least mid-September before I can actually afford a deposit on a new apartment.

At this point, I suspect I'm going to have to find a roommate, or a room in an occupied apartment.

Sean K - Aug 15, 2008 11:10:45 am PDT #1843 of 10001
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty

On the other hand, I'm hoping it will give us both a chance to make peace with it.

Laga - Aug 15, 2008 11:12:51 am PDT #1844 of 10001
You should know I'm a big deal in the Resistance.

peace~ma to you both, Sean.

brenda m - Aug 15, 2008 11:16:40 am PDT #1845 of 10001
If you're going through hell/keep on going/don't slow down/keep your fear from showing/you might be gone/'fore the devil even knows you're there

Oh, Sean. I'm so sorry for you both.

juliana - Aug 15, 2008 11:18:43 am PDT #1846 of 10001
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…

It's probably going to be at least mid-September before I can actually afford a deposit on a new apartment.

{{{Sean}}} I've done that twice now (last time was for 6 weeks, right before I moved here). It's not easy, but I'm sure you'll do your best to make it... okay.

Sean K - Aug 15, 2008 11:21:26 am PDT #1847 of 10001
You can't leave me to my own devices; my devices are Nap and Eat. -Zenkitty

I just really hate having to cause so much hurt for someone I care about.

Daisy Jane - Aug 15, 2008 11:27:32 am PDT #1848 of 10001
"This bar smells like kerosene and stripper tears."

Just keep on focusing on how much healthier this is going to be in the long run. I mean acknowledge the hurt (for both you and her, because Bob knows that when I've been hurt the last thing I want is someone telling me it's for the best). But maybe you can keep the other part in mind for your own mental health.

Miracleman - Aug 15, 2008 11:35:06 am PDT #1849 of 10001
No, I don't think I will - me, quoting Captain Steve Rogers, to all of 2020

I am SO! BORED!

Which has nothing to do with Sean (sorry, dude), but I just need to yell that. Even virtually.

SO! FUCKING! BORED!

Thankfully, I get to go home in thirteen minutes.

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