So, we talk Dollhouse here, right?
Right.
I'm sorry if I'm about to repeat something someone said earlier, or if it's obvious for everybody, but I only recently started reading this thread, and didn't read the whole 1000 posts that were here before.
A couple of weeks ago I had one of my everlasting discussions with my dad about The Way Youngsters Are Brought Up These Days. I tried to explain him something, and I failed. I tried to convey the feeling I get a lot of times, how one should always be 100%, shining and happy; act the way people expects you to act, and always be available for them with the "right" answer.
I think it's ridiculous, stressful way of living. I think it's a service industry way of living, and Lord knows I'll suck badly at this kind of industry, so having a life according to its logic? NSM. If there's anything that keeps me semi smiling when I answer the phone with a bad mood, as I wrote in somewhere in Natter, is that being nice usually means that I'll understand what they want from me and get rid of them faster. Yes, there's also the thing where it's not the person's fault he/she caught me with a bad mood, and that I mostly find good mood infecting. But I'm not always right, neither good, nor nice. I'm not always playing by the rules, not even the ones I've been known to act upon. And the reactions I get by being true to myself without the "would you like fries with that?" attitude are sometimes overwhelming.
But I'm drifting.
I tried to point to my father that in almost every second of my life when I'm around other people, I'm basically acting the way I think they want me to act and to respond, to some level, and I hardly think I'm the only one. It makes things smoother, faster. Keeps society in order.
So this is, from the little I understood about the story, what Dollhouse for me; standing up to the way others' see you. Being true to yourself, even if you have no clue who are you; And building an identity in this service industry judgmentally world.
Just wanted to write that.