so I'm going to eat those tonight while I'm feeling sorry for myself,

Kathy is me tonight. I was so exhausted by pushing back against everyone else's negativity in re: the Market burning, that I drank wine tonight for the first time in more than a month that featured very little other sugar. Result? I'm typing vvveeeerrryyy slowly and would so totally flunk a walktheline test right now.

Ironic...being bummed by other people's bumming and then getting drunk. But hey, it seemed like a good idea.

Off to bed for me.

Mayor is coming tomorrow at 10. Should be sobered up by then.

My 16 year old buddy walked me home from his house (where his mom gave me the alcohol) and could not stop laughing at me. After several attempts to fit a key in a moving lock..."Beej, you should so try handling money soon."

Laugh it up Monkey Boy. (actually, I totally love him...in a noncreepy way) But yeah. Bed now.

THE LINK IS RIGHT. YOU CAN'T FIGHT THE LINK.

It's too early to worry about that link. "Migraine" probably includes several different disorders with several different causes and with different long-term effects. That mouse model is only one of several animal models of migraine, and no one even knows for sure if it matches the human version of even one of these forms of migraine. We do know it doesn't match all of them.

I expect that you'll be able to find more balanced coverage of this paper on e.g. the Mayo Clinic site in a few weeks.

Reparation link: pretties.

Of the two medical studies forwarded to me recently, Rick, I certainly give more credence to the idea that migraines make me stupid. Retarding memory loss? Not yet here, that's for sure.

So, according to the surgeons, my aunt Carol's OPEN HEART SURGERY went well, better than expected. Which, yeah, good, considering OHS! Now if only dad actually recalled the details. I like details. Provides a semblence of control. Dad canb't recall a detail to save his life. Oh well. Aunt Carol is alive and ok.

I definitely don't feel as mentally sharp as I was in college. More frequently right due to life experience, sure, but the ol' gray matter does not work with the same speed and efficiency of memory as it did back in the late 80s and early 90s. And while I'm as technically proficient as I've ever been (except maybe with oils, which I've used once in the last decade), I know I'm not as creative or prolific with regard to my artwork.

On the flip side, the part of my brain that governed worrying about what other people think seems to have experienced a nearly complete early die-off.

This [link] is probably part of my current feeling of stupid.

I was totally dumber than when I was in university before the onslaught of migraines. But the major thing is--I'm really quite dumb while I'm having migraines, and if you count the ones with no pain too, well, I don't want to tot up what %age of my waking life is spent with one active. It's depressing enough as is.

And in migraine news: happy happy joy joy.

I've had a few of the mini-stroke things without the migraines. (Dunno what caused them.) They're starting to think they're fairly common, but they've only recently noticed the extent of the problem due to the recent popularity of MRI brain scans.

I'm scheduled to die of a stroke anyway (I think that's how all my grandparents went), so this is just warmup.