I'm actually home before ten. It's so exciting. First I think I must watch 24. Or The Dresden Files.

Sara--I haven't watched this week's Unit yet (what with living in LA), but I have to say that last week's was mega irritating. The 'mission' plotline? The fuck?

Was that the israeli thingie? Hi. I don't have long term memory for tv.

Weird. The secondary plots irk me most, but that one was...odd. This week's I can deal with.

Kat, I vote sleep. That's what summer reruns are for. Course I say that cause I'm skipping House these days.

Sometimes it's like a button in the tensioner.

That's where I want to think it is. Thanks. I love this machine. It's substantial and can do just about anything. Plus it's all vintagey and reminds me of Mimi's. And thanks for the other thing too.

In kinda nice news. My mom's mom, my other grandmother sent me a card today. I got kinda down Sunday, when I realized I wouldn't be getting an Easter card (and of course, Christmas or Birthday) from Mimi and Wayne. They're about the only people who ever did send me Easter cards. So today, right after telling mom on the phone how sad I was, I get to the mail box and there's a sympathy card from my grandmother. It had a really nice message saying that she's sorry Mimi and grandaddy are gone, that she knew I loved them very much, but that she would always be there for me. Now, she and I never really got along. She's kinda the polar opposite of my other grandparents. Prim and proper, old Birmingham money, married a doctor. Her house is like a museum showroom. She was sending me to charm school while Grandaddy was teaching me to gut fish. Once when I was little, I was playing with a (what was admittedly probably pretty expensive) decorative something or other on the coffee table. She told me to stop "piddling" that I was always messing with things. Another time, my first day of Brownies, I was so excited and nervous, I made myself physically sick. She had to come get me because mom was a single working parent. She told me I shouldn't do that to my mother, that I was being selfish. Point is, me and her, not the greatest of relationships.

Which is kinda why that card meant a whole lot. She didn't send it right after they died, which she might have done out of obligation. She was thinking about me and wanted to connect. She did it because she knew they were the grandparents I needed and loved more than anything, and she was saying that even if she's not them, she still loves me. Almost a month ago, I felt like I was without grandparents. Now, I feel like I got a bonus one.

No, sara, Israel was the week before. Last week was random African country. Kooky tribespeople and deeper meaning and all that.

FUCK. My shoulder muscles are massively and visibly tense. First masseuse appointment is sadly Thursday. And I have to be all the way in Santa Monica for an 8am meeting tomorrow.

Okay, it sure beats Calabasas.

Signed up for health bennies today. Well, some. Undecided on Dental still (two good plans, one almost no out of pocket to me, if I can live with limited choice--I just might). Now I want to second guess my medical. Can I really live with not making my own in-network referrals?

Okay, it sure beats Calabasas.

I first read that as Casablanca and was about to get cross as I love that movie beyond reason. I got to see it at the Sanger in New Orleans a few years back.

Yvonne: Where were you last night?
Rick: That's so long ago I don't remember
Yvonne: Will I see you tonight
Rick: I never make plans that far ahead.

Yay health benefits! One of the reasons I would have to think long and hard about leaving my current job.

Okay, it sure beats Calabasas.

YES IT DOES. Though I have now arranged my life to be in Calabasas once a week for the foreseeable future.

Grace got her first bath today and K changed her diaper for the first time. These feel like accomplishments. Her nurse today was excellent and is one of my favorites.

It took me so long to wrap my head around my last benefits, and I was used to where they hit me. This is all new and weird and I can't help but fear I'm doing it wrong.

Now I want to second guess my medical. Can I really live with not making my own in-network referrals?

You can live with it, of course. But your med stuff is complex and choice seems to work for you so I'd go with choice.

Also, I may have to pick your brain, ita, for places for pillows and for help setting up a Tivo (Thanks Sara!!) with Time Warner cable.

Kat-- you want company tomorrow for tea or dinner or whatever?

It took me so long to wrap my head around my last benefits, and I was used to where they hit me. This is all new and weird and I can't help but fear I'm doing it wrong.

Is there someone in HR who can help you?