Wow, you've really mastered the power of positive giving-up.

Cordelia ,'End of Days'


Spike's Bitches 34: They're All Slime and Antlers  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


esse - Feb 21, 2007 3:17:21 pm PST #6822 of 10001
S to the A -- using they/them pronouns!

HI SA!! I MISS YOU!!

HI MEARA!! I MISS YOU TOO!

I am up too late, which is a pain in the ass; I was drinking with a friend tonight and hit the bed early, like 9:30, which I was happy about because I really could have used the sleep; but I woke up around midnight desperately wanting a glass of water and being annoyed by the drippy, unending hell of the gutter outside. And now I'm exhausted, but can't turn off my brain. Why, improbable deity, why?


Topic!Cindy - Feb 21, 2007 3:21:00 pm PST #6823 of 10001
What is even happening?

vw, all the best to you. We're pulling for you, girl.

I think if we'd have tried to wait there, I might have some insight into your panic attacks. I'm glad we left when we did. But the people waiting cooed over the kids. Liv was wearing a cap a friend knitted for her and she looked like a mini Esther Williams.

Hee.

The panic attack is simple. Imagine how you would feel if you were in the mall, or church, or the 7-11, and turned and saw a bear. Now subtract the bear.

That fight or flight reaction just comes over me out of nowhere and for no apparent reason. It isn't even mood dependent, in my case. I will say, if I rush going somewhere, it's much more likely to happen. Conversely, if I have to wait (esp. in a line that doesn't seem to be moving) it's more likely to happen.


Topic!Cindy - Feb 21, 2007 3:35:16 pm PST #6824 of 10001
What is even happening?

Oh dear, I didn't mean to kill the thread.


Pix - Feb 21, 2007 3:38:39 pm PST #6825 of 10001
The status is NOT quo.

~ma to ND!

You're going to do great, sweetie.


SuziQ - Feb 21, 2007 3:40:32 pm PST #6826 of 10001
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame

My first panic attack scared the crud out of me. I had no idea what was going on. Now that I know the signs, I'm better able to keep myself out of those situations, though there is no way I could list my triggers right now. I mean, sometimes it is crowds, but I also have no problem working my way through a mosh pit or dealing with the crush at the front of a stage. Weird.

Actually that word describes my mood today - weird. Work is finally looking more optimistic, softball season has started, baseball season is around the corner...if I ignore certain other issues, life is looking pretty good these days.


beth b - Feb 21, 2007 3:43:57 pm PST #6827 of 10001
oh joy! Oh Rapture ! I have a brain!

interview ma~~~ND


Topic!Cindy - Feb 21, 2007 3:47:30 pm PST #6828 of 10001
What is even happening?

Good luck with your interviews, ND.

Suzi, I know what you mean.


esse - Feb 21, 2007 3:48:40 pm PST #6829 of 10001
S to the A -- using they/them pronouns!

Good luck, ND honey! They will love you. How can they not?

I am thisclose to finishing up my applications for graduate school. Holy crapola batman! I'm not sure which is worse, fretting about the quality of my app or waiting to hear back from the school!


Pix - Feb 21, 2007 3:54:29 pm PST #6830 of 10001
The status is NOT quo.

Go SA! You can be my inspiration for finishing my one lame application that I should have sent last week.

Cindy, your post made me look up my original drabble on panic attacks. SO glad I haven't had one in awhile. Hang in there.


Topic!Cindy - Feb 21, 2007 3:56:15 pm PST #6831 of 10001
What is even happening?

Oh, Kristin, where is that drabble? It was so spot on, I felt like I wrote it.