Initial reaction... person I *know* reading my fic? Person who is not fannish? Freaks. Me. Out. But then, I feel much the same way about my original stuff unless I've actually written it for a set exercise.

Second reaction: having a person in my life I chould share my fic with, who would understand? Great! Want!

Elena, I like it. connie, Victor, I've got a long way behind, and have discovered I'm nearly as spoiler-phobic with fics as with shows. I will catch up soon, I hope.

I made my immediate family (all non-Buffy watchers) read my fic. Mother thought she'd raised a crazy lady, father and sister intrigued.

I'd let most anyone read it -- I'm almost abrasively defensive about it.

I'm almost abrasively defensive about it.

Yeah, I'm down with that -- OTOH bf knows way more about batman than I do.

abrasively defensive

That's interesting-- this phrase fits incrediably well with what I feel; and yet I react to feeling defensive by *not* showing people, by keeping it a hidden thing, practically a secret, while you react by showing everyone, no matter what they think.

We're totally different. Isn't it cool? t /obvious statements

My reaction to the mid-level of self-consciousness is to flaunt it.

I've been told that's why I have no boyfriend, because I'm a little quick on the draw with dirty laundry.

I would feel very odd about someone I know reading my fic, especially if that person was not a fan of the show. Also, I feel more shy about admitting I wrote fic for some fandoms than I do for others. I have no trouble admitting to you all that I've written Buffyfic, Angelfic, and have WIPs for dS and CSI. On the other hand, even though you all are Buffistas and can be trusted not to mock, I had to take a deep breath before admitting that I write Sailor Moon fanfic, and that it is, in fact, my primary ficdom.

I feel the same way about my seriously invested time in popslash, Anne. And I don't talk about it here, 'cause of many previous discussions about RPS. I can joke about imagining the boys of Nsync getting their groove on with each other around my gay male friends, and with my roommate because she thinks I'm full of shit, but I never address it seriously. It's not shame--just knowing that most people wouldn't understand or wouldn't want to understand.

It's nice to know that other people feel the same way, SA. OTOH, there's part of me that really wants Buffista feedback on some of the stories I've written for fandoms that seem to fall off the group radar, while at the same time I'm a bit nervous about what that feedback would be like.

FYI, I actually did a little work on the CSI/BtVS crossover and a silly little CSI/dS crossover last night.

t tries to keep self from jumping in chair; fails

Woot! I don't think you quite realize the pure love I have for that universe you built.

And I don't talk about it here, 'cause of many previous discussions about RPS.

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm got used to feeling that all fandom is fair game for Buffistas that I forget that there's whole chunks of it we don't deal with here. ( t tangent I've been thinking about some of my early experiences with fandom, things I came across before I met fanfic, and realised that if I was still into those things now, I'd be writing fanfic, and that fanfic would be RPF, probably RPS. It's... odd. Especially since when I first met RPF, my gut reaction was 'no! that's nasty!" Which is rather odd and now looks slightly crazy. t /tangent )

there's part of me that really wants Buffista feedback on some of the stories I've written for fandoms that seem to fall off the group radar, while at the same time I'm a bit nervous about what that feedback would be like.

I felt like that the first time I posted M*A*S*H stuff here. Turns out that wasn't as far out as I'd thought it was.