I'm almost abrasively defensive about it.

Yeah, I'm down with that -- OTOH bf knows way more about batman than I do.

abrasively defensive

That's interesting-- this phrase fits incrediably well with what I feel; and yet I react to feeling defensive by *not* showing people, by keeping it a hidden thing, practically a secret, while you react by showing everyone, no matter what they think.

We're totally different. Isn't it cool? t /obvious statements

My reaction to the mid-level of self-consciousness is to flaunt it.

I've been told that's why I have no boyfriend, because I'm a little quick on the draw with dirty laundry.

I would feel very odd about someone I know reading my fic, especially if that person was not a fan of the show. Also, I feel more shy about admitting I wrote fic for some fandoms than I do for others. I have no trouble admitting to you all that I've written Buffyfic, Angelfic, and have WIPs for dS and CSI. On the other hand, even though you all are Buffistas and can be trusted not to mock, I had to take a deep breath before admitting that I write Sailor Moon fanfic, and that it is, in fact, my primary ficdom.

I feel the same way about my seriously invested time in popslash, Anne. And I don't talk about it here, 'cause of many previous discussions about RPS. I can joke about imagining the boys of Nsync getting their groove on with each other around my gay male friends, and with my roommate because she thinks I'm full of shit, but I never address it seriously. It's not shame--just knowing that most people wouldn't understand or wouldn't want to understand.

It's nice to know that other people feel the same way, SA. OTOH, there's part of me that really wants Buffista feedback on some of the stories I've written for fandoms that seem to fall off the group radar, while at the same time I'm a bit nervous about what that feedback would be like.

FYI, I actually did a little work on the CSI/BtVS crossover and a silly little CSI/dS crossover last night.

t tries to keep self from jumping in chair; fails

Woot! I don't think you quite realize the pure love I have for that universe you built.

And I don't talk about it here, 'cause of many previous discussions about RPS.

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm got used to feeling that all fandom is fair game for Buffistas that I forget that there's whole chunks of it we don't deal with here. ( t tangent I've been thinking about some of my early experiences with fandom, things I came across before I met fanfic, and realised that if I was still into those things now, I'd be writing fanfic, and that fanfic would be RPF, probably RPS. It's... odd. Especially since when I first met RPF, my gut reaction was 'no! that's nasty!" Which is rather odd and now looks slightly crazy. t /tangent )

there's part of me that really wants Buffista feedback on some of the stories I've written for fandoms that seem to fall off the group radar, while at the same time I'm a bit nervous about what that feedback would be like.

I felt like that the first time I posted M*A*S*H stuff here. Turns out that wasn't as far out as I'd thought it was.

Greg doesn't read my fanfic because he doesn't understand the attraction of writing it. He doesn't mind that I write it, in fact anything that will get me writing is a good thing as far as he's concerned, but he doesn't read it. He asked when I plan to toss it for original fiction since it's served its purpose by priming the pump. No one else in my family reads anything I've written. I shared a couple of original pieces with my family and then realized that it made me uncomfortable, even though they liked it.

I shared a couple of original pieces with my family and then realized that it made me uncomfortable, even though they liked it.

I know how that feels, even though I did write one children's story that made my mom, dad, and stepmom all cry. My mom doesn't realy care for fantasy/science fiction or anything else that has a high "woo-woo" factor, and therefore a lot of my writing is not going to appeal to her. (She doesn't look down on it. It just doesn't appeal to her, and she sometimes wishes it did, since she knows that there is some well-written stuff out there.)

I finally told them about the fanfiction thing, and explained to them that it gave me a chance to write, be "published", and receive feedback in a way that didn't carry the pressure of trying to be an original author.