Damn you, Bridget! Damn you to Hades! You broke my heart in a million pieces! You made me love you, and then you-- I SHAVED MY BEARD FOR YOU, DEVIL WOMAN!

Monty ,'Trash'


Buffista Fic: It Could Be Plot Bunnies  

Where the Buffistas let their fanfic creative juices flow. May contain erotica.


Theodosia - Mar 12, 2003 4:12:33 pm PST #2409 of 10001
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"

How strange that his self-knowledge exceeds Xavier’s – his ‘old friend’ has lived a relatively sheltered, privileged life, while Magneto endured a nightmare childhood and adolescence, endured unambiguous physical rape as well as the more subtle ravages of fighting for his survival on every level, including stealing food from the hands of those too weak to fight back. Young Erik learned to harden his heart and do what he must. Why is it that sheltered Charles does not recoil in horror at what his mind invasions do? True, the accident that left him in a wheelchair was a tremendous hardship that must have brought him sorrow and self-pity, but how ironic is it that Magneto is the one repulsed more by the thought of a mind-rape?

But Magneto will endure this visit as all the others, keep close his thoughts of escape, and enjoy the intellectual sparring, enjoy putting a spike into the wheel of Charles’s arrogant assumption that just because he had put his “old friend” behind bars that he has won.

Magneto dreams but lightly at first, small flashes of images, his powers flexing within him. His magnetic powers are part of his nervous system and they fire off just as the rest of his brain does in sleep; long ago he learned to remove easily lifted metallic items from his sleeping quarters. His keepers here were greatly startled when their detectors would sound when their prisoner was asleep, and never when he was awake, his somnolent powers are randomly immense, sometimes much more so than any waking thought has ever commanded them.

As Magneto slips into deeper sleep, coherent dreams animate bits and pieces of his personal history. Always, there is the prison camp; the dream powers are at their strongest torrent here as they were not during the actuality. As has happened every dreaming night of his life, Erik relives the guards dragging him away from his parents, sees their faces, hears their voices pleading and his own screaming, feels the rain beating down on his face and the mud sliding beneath his cheap boots, the flex of his nascent power beating ineffectually at the bars and gates.

Magneto’s keepers are quite concerned by the awesome power on display some nights. If they could watch his dreams, they would know what triggers them; Charles Xavier could tell them, if they knew to ask.

Eventually the dreams change to softer images, if not truly pleasant ones – scattered images of tender caresses stolen in forbidden moments, of alliances and even friendships that developed only to be smashed by separation, illness, brutality, and of bartering his young body for better treatment, or so much as a small bowl of stew or a moldy rusk of bread; even that had been twisted comfort of a kind.

Magneto hardly ever dreams of the liberation of his final camp. He had been in the final stages of typhoid, and had hardly the strength to lift his head from the pillowless bunk when the American medics arrived and triaged him to a hospital. Bald from the fever and brain-dazed, it had been weeks before it had sunk in: he was no longer a prisoner, but a patient. He had not realized how small his globe had shrunk, that he could not conceive of a world greater than his prison camp; in a sense Magneto is still, will always be in prison.

Next are the dreams of his post-camp life when he had tried to forget the things that he had done and had done to him, when Erik Lensherr had found integration into human society a poor fit at best, had tried to tell himself that the strange powers that stress had elicited were dissociations and hallucinations. By chance he’d run into young Charles Xavier who was investigating, even then, the incidence of unexplained powers. Met and connected, they’d become colleagues, and then lovers. Charles had been hale and hearty before his accident, and in his dreams Magneto remembers beyond their physical consummation; Charles had touched him on a deeper level, one that troubled him greatly, for it was the sense of self that had let Erik fight his way through the camps, his will to keep himself whole. With Charles’s damned telepathy, the boundaries between lovers was more frangible than nature intended. They had only themselves as mentors to explore their mutant powers, and mistakes were made, bitterly regretted.

The dreams shift for Magneto, he sees Charles as he is today, imagines the scars that must surely decorate his aged body. In his heart, Charles is still twenty-five, with a head full of hair; his present crippled condition sickens Magneto.

Often, he dreams of more current events, and current people – Mystique, certainly, has offered herself to him repeatedly, in any form that he would care to love. He has never in his waking life accepted her offer, but his dreams betray him; she lays in his bed, python-strong and python-lithe, shifting from one form to another, now Charles, now Wolverine, now the girl Rogue – Marie – the little girl who stole his powers.


Theodosia - Mar 12, 2003 4:13:03 pm PST #2410 of 10001
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"

Sometimes he dreams of Marie, appallingly young and innocent, handcuffed in the boat, or lashed to the machine atop the Statue of Liberty. Except now her piteous cries arouse him, and all his patient explanation why he must kill her for the good of all mutant-kind fails him, and he moves to take her, as he himself was taken when he was no older. Or else he dreams of how it felt to actually touch her, to feel his powers, his self slip away, like the little death of orgasm. Sometimes he is Marie, chained to the posts like Andromeda, sobbing for help, for release, for his parents to come and save him. And then a shining stranger is there to consume him – sometimes with his face, or Charles’s, or even that of Wolverine.

And then there are the dreams with Wolverine. Magneto is contemptuous of the animalistic Sabertooth and Toad, brutally twisted by the world’s treatment of mutants. They are evolutionary off-shoots, tools he can use to a better end. Wolverine would be another such; Magneto has seen him slash with those metal blades; what could such a man be other than an animal, a guided weapon at best? He is surprised that Charles willingly associates with such a one; Charles has limited his recruiting to the comely, the civilized ones. Magneto is content that it should be so; he sees himself as the force that will change the world, and the kindler, gentler mutants such as Charles and his brood will inherit it. But still, Wolverine – how that snarling face haunts him. Mystique had stolen the records that Jean Grey made of his physiology, Charles’s speculations about his hidden personal history – and Magneto is intrigued by the thought that this Logan was the victim of hideous experimentation, calculated sadism for science, reminding him of the Nazi scientists who got their hands on young Erik for far too long.

He imagines what such torture might have been, in his dreams – bones replaced by impossibly tough metal, the pain and fire inside, such as he knows when his power flows through him. And he imagines torturing Wolverine, his power manipulating those bones, animating him like a puppet, pulling him to pieces and putting them back, like clay over a metal armature. Or else he dreams of the animal-man crawling over him, devouring him, forcing those claws again and again into his bleeding body….

In the morning after such nights – and they are frequent here – Magneto wakes, shattered, weary from the parade of horrors, soaked with sweat or other fluids, and sits on his cot, getting his breath under control, and forces himself to think of his goals, of the iron control he must assume to reach them, dismissing his doubts and his humanity as mere paltry things.

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deborah grabien - Mar 12, 2003 4:31:42 pm PST #2411 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

But they put their pants on one leg at a time like the rest of us.

Generally backwards, if I don't hunt for the tag first.

T, I'm ignorant of virtually all of the Magneto backstory, except for the bit I saw in the movie. But read as a story, with no associations? That's a honkin' good little read. It's very evocative of his personal history.

One thing jiggled me a bit, though, in the first section: the thing about the guards signing ritualistically in and out. I read that three times and no matter what I did, I kept seeing them dancing around timeclocks shaped liked pentagrams. A bit disconcerting, especially since what follows and ends that paragraph (They are unimaginative men, stolid and righteous, not unlike the Nazis of his youth) is so clear and unornamented.

Just my ha'penny.


erikaj - Mar 12, 2003 4:39:31 pm PST #2412 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!

You guys! Bad fic writers, messing with my metaphors!


deborah grabien - Mar 12, 2003 4:41:25 pm PST #2413 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

Bad fic writers, messing with my metaphors!

I deny everything! I did nothing naughty! In fact, I am the very model of a modern - oh, wait, that's Gilbert & Sullivan.....

Someone so needs to filk that thing, and make it about fic.


Steph L. - Mar 12, 2003 4:50:10 pm PST #2414 of 10001
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Two questions about my fic:

(1) As a title -- what about "Redux"?

(2) It's been a while since I've committed fic -- where should I send it? I can think of the BFA and G_O, but that's all that's coming to mind.


deborah grabien - Mar 12, 2003 5:05:11 pm PST #2415 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

Oh, I like "Redux."

I like it muchly.


Steph L. - Mar 12, 2003 5:07:32 pm PST #2416 of 10001
I look more rad than Lutheranism

Thankee. I was tossing around "This Year's Girl" in my mind, wanting to convey that sense of "this year's girl returns, with a few new improvements." And my brain finally remembered that it knows words and coughed up "Redux."

Man, finding a title was harder than writing the story!


deborah grabien - Mar 12, 2003 5:11:02 pm PST #2417 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

As for where to send them - I'm completely clueless. I wave my feeble technochallenged little stumps in the air and nice people offer to help me.


SuziQ - Mar 12, 2003 5:32:35 pm PST #2418 of 10001
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame

Steph - I like Redux too...it fits nicely.

OK - time for you write more fic...pretty please???