Death is your art. You make it with your hands day after day. That final gasp, that look of peace. And part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. She really wanted it. Every Slayer has a death wish. Even you.

Spike ,'Conversations with Dead People'


Spike's Bitches 33: Weeping, crawling, blaming everybody else  

[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.


Deena - Dec 02, 2006 5:17:34 pm PST #4065 of 10004
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

Deena, I'm still having problems believing Nick is 21 now.

So am I. He had just turned 17 when I joined the board. I can't believe it's been so long. It seems like no time at all.

The reduction of the Emergency Babysitting Forces...

Ah, Plei. I'm sorry. Nick is our only emergency babysitter, and we can't leave the kids with him long enough for them to need a change of diaper. It sucks a lot. In the last two years, we've been out to see two movies, Serenity and PoTC2, and that's it. No dinners, no dates, no time. It's really brain-deadening. I'm so sorry. I don't even have all the attendant upset that you do. I can't imagine. I hope you find someone you can trust to call up in a pinch.


P.M. Marc - Dec 02, 2006 5:22:31 pm PST #4066 of 10004
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear

It sucks a lot. In the last two years, we've been out to see two movies, Serenity and PoTC2, and that's it. No dinners, no dates, no time.

Poor Deena! I hate that you're in the boat with me.

It's a sucky boat.


Amy - Dec 02, 2006 5:25:05 pm PST #4067 of 10004
Because books.

{{{Plei}}}

I so understand. It's rough when they're little, and you're not sure what will happen when you leave them, and you *need* to get out and Be Adults as much you *want* same, because otherwise it begins to feel as if your brain really has leaked into a puddle consisting of apple juice, the words to several Boynton books, and the faint smells of baby poop and dried milk.

Blessings should be counted, yes indeed, but I know you know full well what yours are, and it doesn't mean you can't wish for life to be a little easier. I certainly do. Right now, Stephen and I aren't going out at all -- the situation is just too weird. If it were only Ben and Jake, no big deal, but we can't leave Sara with Grandpa and definitely not BiL, but bringing a babysitter into a house with not only a fifteen-year-old boy, but grown men, is just ... bizarre.

Not that this is about me! (Oops.) But I feel your pain. Also? Just because you know it will get better doesn't mean it makes it any easier to wait.


Lee - Dec 02, 2006 5:27:22 pm PST #4068 of 10004
The feeling you get when your brain finally lets your heart get in its pants.

That is a sucky boat. I'm sorry you are both in it.

I would be an emergency babysitter for either of you, if it weren't for the stupid distance thing.


Connie Neil - Dec 02, 2006 5:49:09 pm PST #4069 of 10004
brillig

I've only ever babysat once, in college, for an 11-year-old boy who only needed a grown-up in the house between when he went to bed and his folks came home. I wasn't asked back. I've never changed a diaper. I count myself blessed.


Deena - Dec 02, 2006 5:58:13 pm PST #4070 of 10004
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

At 11 we didn't need a babysitter. Or at least my parents didn't think we did. I used to babysit a lot from the time I was 12 until 17. I was lucky to get $1.00 an hour and my last customer paid $2.00! I thought it was a pittance and yet? Adding babysitting on the top of a night out makes it a little harder to justify the expense.

{{Plei}} and {{Amy}} it is a sucky boat. I would happily let any Bitch babysit. Heck, I would be so thankful. Lee, you're a sweetheart. I'm thankful that my mom is healthy and that I don't have to live with my FiL, and I hope that those things improve for the two of you yesterday.

Pictures of Nick: [link]


P.M. Marc - Dec 02, 2006 6:01:24 pm PST #4071 of 10004
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear

21. How did that HAPPEN???

Sigh.

We'e gonna need a bigger boat!


Deena - Dec 02, 2006 6:08:39 pm PST #4072 of 10004
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

I don't know how it happened. I kinda want to turn the clock back. Of course, if he'd just move out the rest of the way (he's gone except a day or two every couple of weeks for laundry and to catch up on his sleep) we could fix up the basement as a family room. Obviously I'm ambivalent. My baby! More space!


SailAweigh - Dec 02, 2006 7:21:51 pm PST #4073 of 10004
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb

Man, knowing Nick is 21 makes my feel older than the fact my daughter turns 27 in a month.

ION, I appear to have acquired a cat. His name is Elliot.


Deena - Dec 02, 2006 7:35:02 pm PST #4074 of 10004
How are you me? You need to stop that. Only I can be me. ~Kara

Elliot is an awesome name. What does he look like?