Not death or illness, but I'm broken y'all.

a pretty significant ex (significant enough that a month ago he was all, "I'll never get over you and if you get over me, I don't want to know about it.") Is now dating what used to be a good girlfriend of mine (Good enough that when the ex said that and it shook me up, she hung out with me to help me get out of the funk). I found out about it yesterday when I went up to the bar (because I stayed here instead of going home to my hospitalized family members and other people who were in town- to avoid him). He had called from there to see if I was coming up- I was shocked and upset- and I was more shocked and upset to find them making out when I got there. Mr. Jane was upset that I was shocked and upset, and now I want to do stupid things and cry.

now I want to do stupid things and cry.

Not too stupid, okay?

Come over to my house. We'll got get tequila and work on this.

Actually, I vote that you drink tequila far from the bar and maybe listen to some sad heartbroken music until you really work that blue mood. Then it'll break like a dam and the release will feel better.

Or maybe go for a bike ride.

eta: I sent you bittersweet music.

I'm never sure what to do at times, well, not exactly like that, but when I've got a funk. Cheerful Distraction or Going with It. Will file the suggestion, Hecubus. Minus tequila, cause that's just cruel. Guess who's going away at Christmas and not facing the Family Drama! Hint: she's an underappeciated artist with a mobility problem. ETA: Tag looks so appropriate right now.

It's just ass. She's also the one the other day who I was needing to back off my life a bit. I have a friend on the way down, we'll go up to the bar and I think I'm going to color my hair.

Thanks for the music. Listening to it now.

Hair coloring is good. Go for a vengeful red.

Where are you going for xmas, erika?

Sorry about that, Heather. (the bummer, not that your friend was coming.) Probably Las Vegas, Hec. Maybe Paulie Walnuts needs a new goomare. You never know. My brother is gonna trip out...he's always been the traditionalist. Genetics are strange...

I'm just angry and confused. Can some people just be off limits? That may be unreasonable, and before yesterday I'd have said I want them both to be happy, it would just be nifty if that didn't involve me getting stomped all over.

Well, bed had been gotten - it is in BEAUTIFUL shape. His old bunk bed has been dismantled and the new bed is now set-up. His room is a PIT and I refuse to clean it for him. I just moved piles around as needed to get stuff done.

CJ is due home in a couple of hours. I'm looking forward to his reaction as he has NO CLUE.

{{{bitches}}}

Daisy Jane. I've always had a rule that if a friend breaks up with someone, the ex-lover is off-limits for a time. How long depends on how serious the involvement was.

Fortunately, I met Nora and Tom for many many beers and yummy food this afternoon, and that was an utter joy. It was fantastic.

I am always here to help, especially when beer is involved. OK, even when beer is not involved. Man, I was SO happy yesterday with the Teppy and the Vermont and the Tom-relaxation, and the beer. I was... I drank a lot of beer, but I wasn't drunk, I was, like *high* off how good it ALL was. (I was also drunk) (But no hangover yay! Thank you giant meal and drinking lots of water before falling asleep!)

We got back to the inn in one piece (because Tom is a very responsible designated driver), had a beer nightcap at the onsite inn pub/brewery, and snuggled down in one of the twin beds in our room and watched "Law and Order: Criminal Intent." Today, we acquired beer (at Long Trail), cheese, and maple syrup (at Sugarbush Farms). Also had a lovely lunch at Simon Pearce in Quechee.

{{Sean and S}}. I will keep hoping that there is an end in sight for you guys with all this health stuff. Hang in there.

ita, I am thinking of you as you are processing all this. I'm sorry.

Daisy, I'm sorry that you are having to deal with the gut-punch.

I had a nap when we got home and I'm still feeling sluggish and irritable. But must go downstairs and get dinner stuff together.

Also, La Tep is SO MUCH FUN AND SO AWESOME like whoa. (starts plotting methods to get her to New England every year).