Ben ,'The Killer In Me'
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Thanks for asking, vw. Very quiet. I'm not liking being alone, but it's a weird feeling, and not one that makes me want to seek others out.
It's just a big drop separating from other mourners, even if we weren't mourning. My heart fell just unlocking my front door to come home. I just napped, and I think every dream had her in it.
This is so surreal. I know it's only been a few days, but it's dominating the air. And my posts...
And my posts...
That's ok. Do what you need to do. And take care of yourself, k?
ita, vw's right, you shouldn't feel at all bad about posting about your loss here as much as you need to.
ita, I wouldn't have known about Marni if you hadn't posted about her, and I'm grateful that I do. She sounds well loved and admored, with good reason. It's nice to know about such people, even on the sad occasions when we lose them. So, thank you.
I'm not liking being alone, but it's a weird feeling, and not one that makes me want to seek others out.
To the extent it is within our power you are not alone. Post about it as much as you care to if that helps at all.
Are there other KCistas?
Gudanov is there about. tina (mostly in the music thread) was from Lawrence until this year. Now she's in Chicago.
What Gar said, ita.
It will, if I recall correctly from my friend Jesse's death this May, continue to dominate your brain for a while, until it doesn't, which may well feel just as strange.
My progression with my Mom's death was something like: grief (primal, powerful, more like anger than sadness), acceptance, loss (pangs, aching), depression, and then a gradual absorption of the loss. Not that it goes away exactly, but that loss is just a fact of your existence after a time.
Blargh. We're back to the hospital tonight.
It's not terribly serious or dire, but S feels bad enough that we can't really wait (and the doctor said we shouldn't, under such circumstances) until our next appointment on Thursday, or even until Tuesday, which would probably be the soonest we could call and request a walk-in visit. Here's hoping this is a very brief stay before we get S back home again. I suspect it will be.