I'm having a very bad day. Got permission to come in late to work. worried I'm going to be late for that.

When I get in I'm going to ask if I can stick around for a few hours and then go home. Don't know what I'm going to tell my supervisor, except I think I'm pmsing hard. Haven't taken my meds correctly. Which is stupid but I'm in this stupid stubborn phase right now and trying to self sabatoge. And owe my therpaist money so I cna't see her.

{{askye}} take care of you. Self-sabatoge? oh noes.

I am fully aware of the 420 slang.

I am wearing a super cute linen shirt today. It's bright yellow! I could be useful in a blackout emergency!

Gronk.

....

S'all I got.

{{{askye}}} Please try to take care of yourself. I know it's difficult.

My contribution to this child has been compared to fungus. This is my role.

It's a vital role, nevertheless.

Emily, DH kept all of his math textbooks. We've lugged those things around with every move. BUT he's often returned to them for reference. Math is funny like that.

I don't even think he bothered to purchase text books for other classes. He may have borrowed from the library and from classmates to get by.

Me, I'd sell my textbooks in the middle of the class for money for a slice of pizza.

I'm going to curse myself by bragging on Olivia's sleeping. She transitioned seemlessly to the crib. And by seemlessly, I mean putting her down at 9 p.m. and her sleeping undisturbed in the crib until 8 freakin' a.m. FOR AN ENTIRE WEEK IN A ROW. Between that, and putting Owen down awake at 8:30 and him sleeping until 7:30, I'm getting more sleep than ever and that makes me a very, very happy person. Of course, now that I've said that, something will happen and they will both wake up at 3 a.m. sometime this week.

{{askye}} Unstubborn yourself, please. We like you and want to see you taking care of yourself. I just had to kick myself in the ass recently for the same reason. I left my meds at home when I went off for the 4th of July weekend and just the two days without really set me back. Plus, there are various agencies that will provide therapy for no or little cost (based on what you think you can afford and not on actual income.) It may not be your regular therapist, but it can help keep you on track.

ION, mice fear me. That is all.

{{{askye}}}

Read Fay's post too quickly, thought the 4 week old alsatian puppy had killed people.

Until the house fire I consulted my old textbooks (english, theatre, religion and psych) quite a lot.

And maybe my college book stores were unusual, but they'd buy, say, a $50 textbook from me for $15 and then sell it for $45. The scammyness of this offended me.

If Trudy is around I think I have a 56k modem laying around at home. I gave one away not too long ago, but I think I may have another. If I can find one tonight I'll sell it to you for the low, low price of nothing.

Edit: I guess Trudy is around.

askye, what Sail said. I'm another person who has done the meds-messing-up thing out of stubbornness or weirdly misplaced pride or who knows what motive. It's totally understandable, and totally human, and, yup, self-sabotagey. Please take care of yourself. If you were diabetic, you wouldn't even consider messing arond with the blood sugar monitoring and the insulin. It'd have no moral value or character judgment attached; it'd just be what you do to keep yourself healthy and safe. And that's what this is, really; a bit of your body doesn't process something the way it should, and this is what you do to correct that so you can get on with your life (and the rest of us, selfishly, can enjoy the pleasure of your company).

I actually referred to Hec, in absolutely SF fashion, as sourdough starter, that mysterious and vital element without which nothing exciting and tangy can rise.

Raq, the Nemo stuff should be up in a couple of hours. I have iPhoto and a very minor sub-photoshoppy application that comes with the scanner, but nothing actually artistic, so they're mostly just unaltered images of individual frames from the comics. Feel free to play or tart up or pare down as you wish (and if anything gets cafepressed I'll buy a metric crapload of it).