It went fine. All on good terms.

We've done counseling and such, so issues have been discussed. But yeah, I'm not always very good at communicating my frustrations. OTOH, when I do it often makes matters much, much worse than just letting things blow over. I always feel guilty when I post something here when I'm frustrated, but it's the only place I've got. I will try to use more discretion though.

Oh, Gud. I just ache for you.

Maybe a therapist just for you would be a good thing. As your invisible friend I, naturally, think she's being utterly unreasonable, etc. And maybe she is. And maybe she isn't. But if you work with someone actually trained in such things that could be a valid perspective. And that could be someone who could help you find ways to assert yourself. And that could be a place for YOU to be frustrated and angry and yet not have to feel guilty. You take such good care of all the people around you, maybe its your turn to be cared for.

Gud, personally I just wanted you to know I still don't think you did anything wrong by letting your daughter see you be sad.(I'm sorry you're sad, though, and I hope something changes about that soonest.) But if fate needs a nudge, Hec does teach young, active, can't-be-held-fully-responsible people to swing baseball bats. IJS.

What?

I like the way that erika's mind works. But we knew that already.

Thanks, Fay. A vague disclaimer is nobody's friend, after all.

Yay, Nora!

Tensions are high in the office lately so this is sure to be the high point of my week -

Manager: "NICOLE! Come here!"

Me: "You bellowed?"

Manager: "Either I'm an idiot or your calculations are completely wrong on this report. How are you coming up with these numbers?" ::after showing her how I came up with the numbers:: "Oh. Ok. That makes sense."

Co-worker walking by: "I think that means Nicole's (calculations are) right and you're an idiot."

So I went and did a brave thing yesterday. I tried on bathing suits. I was not overcome with revulsion on how the actual suits looked--a couple of them were actually quite flattering, but jeez, the legs. Due to skating they are a lot more toned than thay used to be, but they are still white and puffy and cellulite-y. Nothin' I can do about it, I guess.

Hee, Nicole.

I think I will kill everyone today.

I hear even fake tan legs look better than white legs, Robin. Not that I'd know from experience because I don't tan and I tend to think I look dirty when I use the fake tan lotions.

But still, go you with the facing of the dressing room mirrors while wearing a swimsuit!!

Aw, P-C. I was hoping today would be better for you.

Neutrogena makes a good one...my mom uses it sometimes, and it looks pretty real.