I'm going to buck the trend and say: being a Band Girlfriend(TM) doesn't mean you have to go to every single gig. The measure of how much you love Teacup Guy is *not* based on an attendance record.

Will he be happy that you're there IF he knows that *you* aren't having a good time? No, because *he* wants you to be happy, too.

If you don't want to go, I say don't go. Maybe make him dinner beforehand? A little snuggle time beforehand? In my book, that's Good Girlfriend(TM) material.

You have to do it for those of us sitting home watching cable tonight, pet. Besides, I've already been the yellow-belly crip this week...doing my part to make bravery meaningful.

I'm kidding...I get it if you don't feel like it. Just don't let the *demons* stop you.

I'll likely be just as miserable if I stay home. No, I don't have to go to every gig, you're right, but Dave is working and he is coming home with just enough time to eat quick and run off to the gig. I don't feel I can just cancel on him when he walks in the door. Plus, I feel I have been unfair to him lately. I've been snappish and never quite ready on time lately. I know most of it is depression because I have to say good-bye to T tomorrow. Dave has been wonderfully supportive, but it is not fair that I am taking this out on him.

Oh, but also? sj, you are stunningly, heartbreakingly beautiful. I know I mentioned that after the Cleveland trip last year, because your pictures just don't do you justice, so when I met you, I was in awe.

So you don't need to keep your pretty self at home b/c of that.

But I still think that if you need to chill at home, just chill at home. You'll go to the next gig.

Thanks, Teppy. You're sweet. I can't make myself believe you right now, but thank you anyway.

I can't make myself believe you right now, but thank you anyway.

You're very welcome. AND, maybe you don't need to believe it yourself right now -- maybe it can be enough to know that *we* believe it for you.

maybe it can be enough to know that *we* believe it for you.

It certainly help, and I will be thinking of you guys tonight when I am trying to find a good corner to hide in.

Women are always telling me that!

erika does the near impossible again by making me laugh.

Also, someone needs to start reminding me to eat during the day again. I was doing so good about having 3 meals a day for a while, but I have been slacking. I just had a couple of leftover chicken wings, and I am starting to feel a bit calmer.