Hugs to ND.

Not wanting to deal and having to anyway does indeed suck. Just try not to beat yourself up too much, m'kay? Some people pay good money for beatings!

Beej, I'm actually WAY impressed that you both have managed the beginnings of a relationship while both of you had MONO! That's huge. And also why I think you'll both be able to handle a talk about what he volunteered but failed to come through with. You need to know that he follows through with what he commits to and he needs to know that you're going to be honest with him about your feelings. (IMO, that is. Of course, it's best to remember that it's been a while since I was in a long-term relationship.)

I just really don't want to make this trip. I fly out at some point tonight hit Reno and pick up a rental car. I have a 90 mintue to 2 hour drive to the Dude Ranch (yes you read that correctly) then I drive back to Reno Sunday at 11 and fly back to LA. Over $400 for one day where I don't wanna be. It's really depressing me. blah.

I'm with Nicole, only because you had a lot of fun with him at the beginning- you just need to figure out theis bump, which might be a moutain, but he might be like other people I know, that need to be reminded that certin things can't be said lightly

too bad youaren't stopping here ND. then it would be more fun.

Currently, Matt is looking for Fernet.

The flight is delayed even more. How much of a delay would justify my not going?

I just really don't want to make this trip. I fly out at some point tonight hit Reno and pick up a rental car. I have a 90 mintue to 2 hour drive to the Dude Ranch (yes you read that correctly) then I drive back to Reno Sunday at 11 and fly back to LA. Over $400 for one day where I don't wanna be. It's really depressing me. blah.

Um... when did ND start making sense? Because I don't care how much I love someone, I still probably wouldn't go that much out of my way (money and time) for a single day with them. And that's if I really want to see them.

ION ~ I spoke too soon yesterday and jinxed myself. Woke up this morning with sinus pressure and the beginnings of a cough. In addition to the swollen lymph nodes. DAMN THE F2F ICK! And it has to be from you people and the fun that was had on Saturday night because I kissed two guys on Friday night and neither of them are sick.

How much of a delay would justify my not going?

Twenty-nine and a half minutes from Right Now. No particular reason why other than that sounds reasonable.

You make good points Nicole and beth. It WAS fun in the beginning and we HAVE been sick the whole time.

I sincerely don't know if the selfish-seeming cheapness and other money/help/promises issues are character driven or situational.

I'm hoping that, when I'm well, I'll have some remote idea how to rewind (or rather bulk erase) all the bad times up until now.

I actually teach classes on forgiveness...so I guess I have to practice what I preach.

Sigh.

Practicing what you preach is all well and good once the situation is resolved reasonably and fairly for both parties.

Before I forget AGAIN - Hec gives amazing massages! I've been meaning to say that for a very long time now. Thank you, David!