Honestly, Beej- it took you sometime to realizes he was the carrier. and it really sounds like you are blaming him. When people are sick they don't act thier best. Now, this may be a breaking point, but really it could be a learning point. The only thing that bothers me , is that it sounds like he promised to help with the medical bills, and he hasn't . He never had to make the promise, but not keeping it is another thing. but I still see learning point is possiblity - you haven't been together that long.

These three responses are exactly what has been going on in my head.

violence...

worry about how future problems would be handled...

what is the learning? It's true that neither of us has been well for pretty much the whole time. AND, I never said he should pay the bill. He promised and then left me hanging. Even if he'd just lent me the dough, I'd have appreciated the help.

Are you still sick? You could back out due to illness... Everyone knows it's dangerous to fly when stuffed up.

I thought about it but I'm pretty much over the ick. I already feel like a piece of crap for not wanting to see my family. I just don't want to get on this plane. I don't want to deal. I just want to go home.

bleh.

Hugs to ND.

Not wanting to deal and having to anyway does indeed suck. Just try not to beat yourself up too much, m'kay? Some people pay good money for beatings!

Beej, I'm actually WAY impressed that you both have managed the beginnings of a relationship while both of you had MONO! That's huge. And also why I think you'll both be able to handle a talk about what he volunteered but failed to come through with. You need to know that he follows through with what he commits to and he needs to know that you're going to be honest with him about your feelings. (IMO, that is. Of course, it's best to remember that it's been a while since I was in a long-term relationship.)

I just really don't want to make this trip. I fly out at some point tonight hit Reno and pick up a rental car. I have a 90 mintue to 2 hour drive to the Dude Ranch (yes you read that correctly) then I drive back to Reno Sunday at 11 and fly back to LA. Over $400 for one day where I don't wanna be. It's really depressing me. blah.

I'm with Nicole, only because you had a lot of fun with him at the beginning- you just need to figure out theis bump, which might be a moutain, but he might be like other people I know, that need to be reminded that certin things can't be said lightly

too bad youaren't stopping here ND. then it would be more fun.

Currently, Matt is looking for Fernet.

The flight is delayed even more. How much of a delay would justify my not going?

I just really don't want to make this trip. I fly out at some point tonight hit Reno and pick up a rental car. I have a 90 mintue to 2 hour drive to the Dude Ranch (yes you read that correctly) then I drive back to Reno Sunday at 11 and fly back to LA. Over $400 for one day where I don't wanna be. It's really depressing me. blah.

Um... when did ND start making sense? Because I don't care how much I love someone, I still probably wouldn't go that much out of my way (money and time) for a single day with them. And that's if I really want to see them.

ION ~ I spoke too soon yesterday and jinxed myself. Woke up this morning with sinus pressure and the beginnings of a cough. In addition to the swollen lymph nodes. DAMN THE F2F ICK! And it has to be from you people and the fun that was had on Saturday night because I kissed two guys on Friday night and neither of them are sick.