Can you tell him you need time to reflect on what just happened?
Probably. Mostly, I'm worried he'll figure out I'm a totally disorganized mess. I am getting better, but... well.
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'Beneath You'
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Emily - Apr 02, 2006 3:14:05 pm PDT #8020 of 10001
"In the equation E = mc⬧, c⬧ is a pretty big honking number." - Scola
Jesse - Apr 02, 2006 3:17:51 pm PDT #8021 of 10001
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
I am a firm believer in needing time to process something that just happened before you can really tell what it was. I'm not him, obviously, but I don't think that really has anything to do with organization.
Kristen - Apr 02, 2006 3:23:45 pm PDT #8022 of 10001
Does anyone know if Top Model reruns?
I think they've been reairing the previous week's episodes on Tuesdays at 8.
sarameg - Apr 02, 2006 3:24:27 pm PDT #8023 of 10001
Bubble skirts: why?
Pix - Apr 02, 2006 3:25:09 pm PDT #8024 of 10001
We're all getting played with, babe. -Weird Barbie
Emily, every student teacher is a disorganized mess. Hell, I'm on year 9 and I'm still disorganized more often than not. Don't worry--I'm sure your cooperating teacher sees your incredible potential, and remember that he's there to help you. You're not supposed to be perfect yet.
{{{{Emily}}}} I remember how stressful it was, though. Hang in there.
Jesse - Apr 02, 2006 3:27:46 pm PDT #8025 of 10001
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
I think they've been reairing the previous week's episodes on Tuesdays at 8.
That would be excellent.
aurelia - Apr 02, 2006 3:33:32 pm PDT #8026 of 10001
All sorrows can be borne if you put them into a story. Tell me a story.
Part of my problem is actually that I freeze up when he asks me that, so I don't always have answers. Especially since it's literally as the last students are leaving the room.
Could you try to set up a semi-regular time to talk that isn't right before or right after class?
sj - Apr 02, 2006 4:05:13 pm PDT #8027 of 10001
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."
That was a really good WW.
DebetEsse - Apr 02, 2006 4:07:40 pm PDT #8028 of 10001
Woe to the fucking wicked.
We're not supposed to be perfect yet?
Well, damn. Gonna have to work on that.
(That's not true. I'm not giving as many lessons as I should because they're all working, and I don't want to disrupt them. And that's just because I don't really get to choose what all is given to the students. If I had to really plan, it would be a whole other ballgame.)
My mentor teacher is supposed to have a conference with me, and let me know how I'm doing/did, but I think that's only at the end. Which is irritating, as my trainer will be seeing me before then. Yeah, self-eval's a bitch.
Emily - Apr 02, 2006 4:11:41 pm PDT #8029 of 10001
"In the equation E = mc⬧, c⬧ is a pretty big honking number." - Scola
Thanks, Kristin! It's just all so overwhelming, and... uh... yeah, that's pretty much it. Overwhelming. And I really have to shake this habit of being afraid of criticism. It's not that I can't take it -- I even want it, in this case, I want to do better! It's that every time it comes up there's some little part of me that's waiting for them to say, "You know, you really suck at this. Maybe you ought to rethink this?"
Which is my own demon, and possibly that of being off my meds as well. They should kick in again sometime soon, and maybe things will even out.